Chandler Bing: what do u fucking know
I don't know why I did what I did next. Blame it on the effects of sitting in the sun. Blame it on sheer stupidity. But I said what I said and it was too late to take it back.
Lucky Charm: everything
Lucky Charm: I know everything.
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Continuation:
I was a terrible liar. If Justin or Drew or whatever his real name is, were here, he'd see it clearly on my face, almost as if it were written in permanent marker across my forehead.
Chandler Bing: what do u want from me
Lucky Charm: you know what i want
Chandler Bing: Money? Tickets?
I asked my question before thinking it through properly
Lucky Charm: why would I want tickets?
The second I hit send I knew i had made a mistake, it didn't make sense to me why he would ask me if i wanted to tickets, but it was obviously part of his secret.
His slow response confirmed my thoughts. He was obviously beginning to question whether or not I really knew.
The wind blew through my hair and i shifted it off my face and behind my ear. It was only then that i realised my hand was shaking.
Shit. Why was I so nervous?
Chandler Bing: u don't know
Chandler Bing: fuck sasha I don't know what felt worse
Chandler Bing: thinking u were playing me this entire time
Chandler Bing: or knowing u lied to me to get information out of me
His words made me feel deflated. The last thing I wanted to do was add to the reason he had trust issues.
How did everything get so complicated?
Lucky Charm: who says i don't know?
Chandler Bing: what's my surname?
even his surname wasn't real?
Chandler Bing: what do i do
had he lied about being in college too?
Chandler Bing: who am i
I thought I knew, but I have no idea, I wanted to say.
Instead, I admitted defeat.
Lucky Charm: I just don't understand why you're so secretive
Lucky Charm: Why can't you just tell me who you are?
Lucky Charm: Is this about your appearance?
Lucky Charm: Were you scared i'd find your real facebook and see pictures of you?
Lucky Charm: I want to know why you never send me snapchats that show your entire face.
Lucky Charm: Are you missing an eye?
Lucky Charm: Do you have a massive boil on your forehead?
Lucky Charm: Whatever it is, it's not important to me
Lucky Charm: None of it is important to me
Lucky Charm: Only this
Lucky Charm: That's what i care about
Lucky Charm: I just want the truth
I hadn't meant to sound so panicked and desperate, but admittedly that's how i felt. Everything had fallen apart so quickly and it was only beginning to dawn on me how much i needed everything between us to be okay.
Chandler Bing: i cant
Chandler Bing: this was too damn close
Chandler Bing: we can't be friends anymore
Chandler Bing: i'm changing my number
Chandler Bing: whatever this is its finished.
Chandler Bing: It's done.
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(Sorry for late update, i've had no wifi bc of the wild weather 😭)
