Loving Mystery (Ang P.O.V. ng Babaeng Sawi)

1.19. The To-do-lists of Loving Him

"In behalf of the all the bands, thank you, guys, for keeping the energy high 'til midnight! It's been an awesome night for everyone! We just hope that you keep on seizing, learning, making and loving music all the days of your life! 'Til we meet again!" Yohan screamed and then a slow rock music echoed all over the arena.

It's their last song for the year-end music festival.

They were like so into performing the song like it was the first time they had ever sang the song, embracing the very meaning of each words. Ivan sang the last part.

Stained from your madness.

Pricked by your love.

I'm taking my heart

Before you break it apart.

By the passion raging in their eyes, I knew they found the love that won't break their hearts apart.

I was in the apartment alone again. Walang Liam dahil andoon na naman sa Maine ang damuho. Ewan ko ba kung anong pinaggagawa 'nun, confidential kaya hindi nag-aabalang sabihin sa akin.

Dahil nga sa mga pinaggagawa ni Ivan nalaman na ni Ms. Kho ang tungkol sa amin, parang bomb nga na pinasabug sa harapan ng mukha ni Ms. Kho 'yung balita buti nga at handang-handa ang Vain sa isang digmaan kaya 'yun I wasn't dragged to fight for my life.

Nagiging mas komplikado na ang mga bagay-bagay sa aming dalawa ni Ivan. May natanggap na akong email mula sa CitaDel-V&V, their expecting me to work soon for the company and I couldn't suppressed my happiness.

Since when did it felt difficult to choose to be with him?

Ngayon pa na pareho kami ng nararamdaman?

Ano ba naman!

I also wanted to be near my family, I don't want to miss another important event in their lives.

What am I supposed to do?

I wanted them both but I could only choose one and leave the other.

Hindi na nga ako makapag-focus sa pinapanood ko dahil sa kakaisip.

Hay naku naman!

I was busy making faces when I heard my phone ringing.

"Busy thinking of me?" I heard Ivan's teasing voice.

How did he know that?

"Shut up, jerk," I growled.

"I want to see you," he begged.

"It's already 2am, do you want me to call a cab?" I nagged.

"You don't have to. I'm outside," he said and ended the call.

May problema talaga ang lalaking 'yun sa utak. I stood and dressed up. When I step outside it was steaming cold but Ivan still look dashing leaning on his car all in disguise while waiting for me.

"Like what you're seeing?" he teased. I just rolled my eyes and went inside his car.

We just keep silent. I knew there was something wrong by the way he held on the driver's wheel like he could drive forever and never stop.

"Is there any problem?" I asked.

He looked at me like he really miss me and said, "Nothing.. I just miss you, psycho girl. You're just around but I couldn't have quality time with you."

I made a heavy sigh and said, "I know... You have a very tight schedule."

"It will be worse when we'll be releasing Weaknesses," he added.