Loving Mystery (Ang P.O.V. ng Babaeng Sawi)

2.3. The Exact Door to Dumbness

Nagising ako sa tunog ng kung anong bagay. Probably, it's from my annoying alarm clock. I did what I usually do to stop the annoying noise from my annoying alarm clock and my hand found the exact spot.

The ringing did stop but I still feel a little sore from crying.

Kaya nga iniiwasan ko ang mga bagay na nakakapag-iyak sa akin dahil mas lumalala ako ngayon, mas matagal akong natatapos pagkatapos pumapangit pa ako lalo dahil parang baloon na 'yong mata ko dahil sa pamamaga.

Minsan na nga lang akong umiyak, sandamakmak naman ng baldi ng tubig ang iniiyak ko na halos madehydrate na ako kakaiyak.

I raked my hair with my two hands.

Shocks naman 'tong pusong 'to! Kalimutan mo na nga 'yun! Tapos na 'yun, di ba?? Di ba?? Di ba? Hay!

Natatakot na ako sa mga pinaggagawa ko ngayon. Panay kausap ko sa sarili ko 'eh, ngayon naman puso ko naman ang kinakausap ko.

Ang tigas naman kasi nitong ulo ko, at ang OA-OA naman nitong puso ko!

Kasalanan 'to ni Liam! Pipingotin ko 'yung lalaking 'yun kapag nagkita kami! Arghhh!!!!!!?

I went downstairs straight to the kitchen to have a glass of water nang may kung anong matigas na bagay ang nakahandusay sa kusina.

"Liam?" I exclaimed.

Kung bakit kasi kung uminom sobra-sobra na para bang mauubusan sila ng alak dito sa mundo. Sigurado akong lasing din 'yung dalawa.

Liam even smelled nasty. Ngumiwi na lang ako.

"Hey, Liam! Get up! Yuck! Ang baho mo pa!" I yelled.

Ilang yugyog pa bago nagising ang lasing na si Liam. 

"Hoy, bumangon ka diyan... Move! I'll make us breakfast," I ordered.

He made it to the sofa and back to sleep.

I was almost done with preparing for breakfast when Yssa and Xel woke up. I felt shaken when Xel asked me bluntly.

"How could you not tell us about Ivan West?" she sound annoyed.

Ayan na naman ang hindi matapos-tapos na topic. Hindi ba nila maintindihan na gusto ko nang kalimutan ang lahat ng 'yun?

"I have nothing to tell, Xel," I said and looked straight into her eyes.

"And besides, it was a long time ago, a very long time ago. What?! 3? 4 years ago," I added.

"But you didn't tell us anything," Yssa pressed.

"I mentioned it to you. He was the guy I was talking about during chat, just unnamed but I mentioned it to you," I explained.

They stared daggers at me and by the look in their eyes they're saying I'm hopeless.

"Okay! I'll be honest here! I don't want to talk about it. I don't want to talk about him. Could we just leave it like that?" I exclaimed.

"No! We will talk about it, cursed him if you want! But we will talk about it!" Xel pressed.

"I will not curse him. And I am not talking about it, I'm not going to replay every scene in my head like it was never over because it was already over, Xel! What's the point of telling you everything?" I added.

Xel made a heavy sigh, Yssa just stared to the both of us and I just continued preparing the table for breakfast.

When we all sat around the table, I spoke, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I didn't tell you about it. Hindi naman kasi inspiring 'yung kwento kaya hindi ko na sinabi sa inyo."