Loving Mystery (Ang P.O.V. ng Babaeng Sawi)

1.17. The Leave-taking and His Catch

"Ivan needs you in his studio," Molly said and sat beside me.

I took my phone and texted him.

Anong kailangan mo, boss?

I've been avoiding Ivan as best as I could since the stupid drowning event. Nahiya din naman ako sa pinaggagawa ko 'noh.

He texted back.

Water.

Tubig lang pa la ang kailangan.

I poke Molly, did the puppy eyes and gave her the bottle of water and a towel.

"Why are you acting so lazy these past few days?"

"I am just a bit sick. Please, Molly... Can you give these to Ivan?"

She made a face and took the things.

"You cannot avoid him forever," she added and glared at me.

Hindi na ako sumagot dahil alam ko na kung ano talagang dapat kong gawin. I've already decided and okay na lahat, puso ko na lang 'ata ang nagrerebelde at naghihintay pa ako ng tamang timing. Molly was back.

"Ivan's not in the good mood. He needs you there," she casually said and sat beside me.

I took my phone and texted him. Before I could press send, Molly took my phone and glared at me.

She exclaimed, "Can you just please stop this non-sense! You go. Now!"

I stood up and went towards his conservatoire.

And he was there, just sitting in the floor and staring at his reflection in the mirror.

The guy was a mess, same as my heart too. A mess.

Lub. Dub.

I stood by the door and casually announced that I was there, "What do you need?"

He continued staring blankly at the mirror and said, "Are you okay? Molly said you're sick."

"I'm okay," I lied.

He looked at me and said, "You're lying."

"How did you know?" I sarcastically asked. 

You don't know anything.  My mind added.

"I just know."

"What do you need?"

He looked back at the mirror and said, "I just wanted to see you since you're doing a very good job of avoiding me."

"What do you want me to do, then?" I growled.

"Tell me... Ano bang gusto mong gawin ko, huh?" I added with frustration.

Minsan talaga iniisip ko rin kung bakit nagkaganito. Oo, may kasalanan naman talaga ako... Pero kasi minsan di ko gets 'tong lalaking 'to... Siya lang din naman ang nagbibigay sa akin ng rason para umasa. Hindi ko rin maiwasang mainis.

Ano ba talagang ang gusto niyang gawin ko?

Umasa na naman sa wala?

He stared blankly at me and said, "Ano bang gusto mong sabihin ko?"

I want you to say that you feel the same way too.

"I don't want you to say anything. You don't need to say anything," I coldly answered.

Because I don't want to get hurt again. And again. And again. I'm still hurt. Huwag mo nang dagdagan.

He raked his hair with both of his hands. He's just a total mess now. I really could see it. I wonder why...