*4th Quarter, 6.1 seconds left on the clock,we are behind by just a sting. Coach depending on me, he calls the time out because he wanted to make sure we will get it, He is depending on me to take the shot, just like he’ll probably do if he was able to handle Manong. *
*The clock was moving too fast, people are all standing watching me, inbound was scrappy, but the pass was good, I jumped to get a hold of the ball, I got it, drop just before the red light covers the ring, pero BAM! Wala. I almost died, I wanted to die, I felt my knees weaken, I let my body drop on the floor and I covered my face with my big hands. *
*Why? I mean, what did I do wrong? Maganda ang release ko ng bola, alam ko yun, saan may mali? Bakit? Then I felt Adrian pulling me to stand up and I did. Dumiretso na ako sa dug out. I leave them there. My chest is so heavy. I wanted to crash it just to be able to numb myself. Nagbihis lang ako and leave. Hiding my face in the hood. *
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Bea’s POV:
*I was exiting the Gym door when Kuya Vince waved at my direction. Lumingon ako sa likod ko, at tinanggal ang headset sa tenga ko.*
“Ako?”
*I asked very confuse, I was expecting him actually to look for Kat. But by the look of it, mukhang ako ang sadya niya. *
“Ahm Bei.”
“Yes, Kuya? Are you looking for Kat ba? She left early eh, diba kasi light trainings lang siya, kaya maaga sila natatapos.”
“I was actually looking for you.”
“Me? Bakit?”
*He scratched his nape, parang masyadong seryoso.*
“Bei, can you help us reach out to Thirdy? Please? I know medyo makapal naman ako masyado to ask you this. Pero I am really worried. Actually kami ng team.”
“Kuya Vince, if he has issues again, let him fix that, He needs to learn things.”
“Hindi mo pala alam. Its not the usual “Thirdy’s pag iinarte” We lose to ADU by just a point. Siya ang huling tira sana. From then on, sa mga classes nalang namin siya nagpapakita, hindi na siya umuuwi ng dorm, he skipped four days of training already. He took it very hard. He took the blame.”
*Hindi ako kaagad nakapag salita, I know the feeling of losing at ikaw ang huling humawak ng bola.*
“Hindi ko naman hinihiling na maging kayo o kaya eh payagan mo siyang manligaw uli. Ang akin lang alam ko naman kasi na makikinig siya sayo. Maybe he just need to be reminded that it is not how bad he thinks it is. Na pwede pa siyang bumawi, at mahal ka niya kaya siguradong makikinig yun sayo.”
“Uhm, let me see what I can do. Pero I am not promising anything. Baka i- text ko nalang siya. Mahirap na, Ayaw ko rin naman sagasaan si Cole in any way. He is very good to me.”
“Yeah, Cole, I know, I understand. Surely that will change the current complexion. Salamat talaga Bei. I’ll go ahead.”
*Bineso niya ako at tumalikod na. I don’t know what to think or feel. I can’t believe this is happening. I put back the earphones and continued walking papunta sa sasakyan ko.*
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Msg to Thirdy:
Saan ka?
He replied:
You know where to find me.
*There it is, I contacted him, alam ko na dapat di ako mag give in sa request ni Kuya Vince, pero I can’t stand the idea na I could have done something for someone pero hindi ko ginawa.*
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*Eliazo lobby, I was paged dahil may delivery daw for me. Flowers lang pala, maybe from a fan again. I opened the card attached to it.*
Bei,
I know you wouldn’t want me to call you that name cause we are not “close” pero sinasabi ko sayo Bei, babawiin ko lahat ng sinayang ko noon, lahat ng chance na nawala, babawiin kita Bei. By the way this is my way of saying thank you for meeting me yesterday. Na miss ko yung mga ginagawa natin noon. Now I am looking forward to reclaiming those moments.
PS: See you later this lunch, same spot.
FRIII
“Hey! Bei ano yan?”
“Wahh!!”
*fuck bigla nalang may nagsalita sa tabi ko!! Pagtingin ko si Cole lang pala. Natawa pa siya sa akin. Pero shit kanina pa ba siya sa tabi ko?*
“Woah! Grabe gulat mo ah! Ano meron?”
*Ok yes, di niya nabasa yung card na hawak ko, pero ngayon pinapag lipat lipat niya ang tingin niya sa hawak kong bouquet of flowers at card.*
“Ah ito? Wala ito, from a fan lang.”
*I said trying to hide the card from him. He made that boyish smirk.*
“Tara lunch? On me.”
*Oh gosh, how can I tell him na may prior commitment na ako? This guy is my constant lunch buddy for almost a year now, and what could be the best way to tell him I can’t, but to lie.*
“Uhm, lunch with the rookies mamaya eh, Jules and the girls is excited about it na, sorry di ko pala nasabi sayo kagabi over the phone. Next time promise.”
“Ganun? Edi sama nalang ako? For sure Migs and Marquis will be joining naman, also Marci.”
*Oh boy, Beatriz! Think!*
“Hindi eh, exclusively for the team lang muna ngayon. Next time we kasama na kayo.”
“Ok then, but we will see each other naman mamaya after afternoon class diba? Prior to training?”
“Yeah, sure yun.”
“Ok, I’ll go ahead may hihiramin nga pala akong book sa Rizal Lib, you take care Bei, If you need me, just text me ok?”
*Then he hugged me, I don’t know but somehow the hug screamed possession, or Am I just too paranoid.*
“Bye, Cole. Bawi nalang ako next time.”
*And I watched him leave, napa buntong hininga nalang ako at pumasok na uli ng dorm. You are so screwed up Beatriz, langya baman oh.*
BINABASA MO ANG
Time After Time (Beardy Fanfic)
FanfictionI've been waiting for Bea de Leon and Thirdy Ravena to realize things and sadly wala pa akong napapala. Then came Bonfire, and I was taken to the sky again.
