An Imperfect Beauty and Her Beast

The Missing Savior

A/N

It's winter break and that means more chapters! I've been having some annoying writer's block, but hopefully it'll go away soon. I still need to find more ideas for up coming chapters though. And yet I've already planneed how I'm going to end this story. But, don't worry. I want to reach at least hundred pages by the end of it. So please vote/comment/share!

Giovanna’s POV

 Every night I’ve woken up on several occasions from nightmares. It’s as if they’ve decided to attack me all at once. It’s become more and more tortuous as this day slowly managed it’s way back into my life. January 4th. Continuous flashes of the original day flash through my mind every time I wake up with my heart pounding and my lungs grasping for air. I’d find myself scared of reality and lost in an endless spiral of ends. If that even makes sense. But what made it all worse, is that every time I’d wake up David wasn’t there. In those moments of multiple emotions, I would always expect for David to be at my side telling me everything was okay. But, he wasn’t. I was always alone in the darkness of my room, crying from the horrible experience I had just went through. I made sure my sobs were silent in fear that someone would catch me, but sometimes I wondered if I wanted to be caught. I thought that maybe if somehow, he heard me, then maybe he’d come by and manage to make my tears disappear. But, it hasn’t been like that. For the past few days, we’ve managed to avoid each other completely. I let logic take over during the day, while my heart pours itself out to the moon and stars.

It was today. When I woke up, I felt my heart in my throat and my stomach feel heavy. I didn’t want to get up, but I knew I had to. My mother wouldn’t like it if I spent the whole day in bed. So I followed her wishes and hoped for the day to pass quickly. But, nobody seemed to hear my wish because the day felt like it was passing as slow as molasses. I hardly touched breakfast and I assumed practically all of the maids and butlers knew what today meant. No one questioned my silence or lack of hunger when I absently walked the halls. I was grateful for that though. I just wanted to be left alone today.

The day was cold and gloomy. I found it a perfect fit for the occasion. My hands were freezing along with my toes, even though I was bundled in wool. My breathing was erratic and I felt as though I could not swallow. I rapidly walked through the halls with no destination. It was only 1 in the afternoon and I had done a million things to try to keep me distracted. But, nothing helped. I then finally decided to go outside. The gardens were covered in snow from days before, but everything looked in order. Well, as much order as David’s gardens have always been. The gardens like to grow wild with roses, even in the winter. At first I found it strange that these flowers could continue growing throughout the year, but I’ve realized that magic roses aren’t really my biggest concerns.

As I walked along the paths, I noticed the detail of the roses. I remember how David said his mother loved roses. I can see why. They hold an unknown beauty to them that I can’t describe. Their presence somehow seemed to calm my nerves as I felt the waxy petals between my fingers. I had wiped some of the snow off of many of the roses so that I could see them better.

I began to stray from the paths and walk closer to the woods. The tall trees somehow made the sky seem darker. But, I found that I didn’t pay much attention to them. I didn’t walk that far in when I decided to sit down. It wasn’t that I was tired, it’s just that I didn’t want to stay by the castle and I knew it would be dangerous if I trekked any deeper into the woods. But, I became restless by just sitting. Soon I was on my feet again, pacing. I haven’t spoken a word this entire day. I just wanted to scream. But, if David heard me he’d probably think I was in trouble. It’d be real awkward if he found me screaming at nothing. So, instead I let out a small yell and hoped it would release the weight on my shoulders. It hardly did.