Worth Remembering //Park Jimin

No More Dream

Facebook asks, what's on your mind? Well, my current status as of November 3rd, 2016 is, living the American Dream. As least that's what it should be like. I take a deep breathe as I sit in front on my laptop. It's past mid-term of my sophomore year in college and I'm currently employed as a pharmacy technician. The road I'm traveling on is harsh with many new challenges each day but I stick with the traditional route. Go to school, get that piece of paper, and get a good paying job. Sometimes I wonder, what is a dream? Did I ever have any? Is this the life I really wanted for myself? Upon pondering all these thoughts, I grabbed an album from the self and inserted the CD into my laptop. The first song was perfect just like the rest of the songs. Bangtan Boys understood so much and their lyrics always spoke out to me. At first I didn't care about Korean music because I felt like I couldn't understand but after hearing a few songs and finally taking a chance, I read the lyrics. Since then I couldn't go back.

Nevermind was playing as I studied for my classes. I know it's not the best way to study, but it helps me. Now let's be clear, I'm not really a normal fan and I love Park Jimin. The funny thing is, it was his smile in Boys In Luv that took my heart away. 

"Y/N! Mom made some sugar cookies. Come get some!" screamed my little sister Nina. 

"Okay! I'm coming!" I went upstairs to grab some and spent my little break with my siblings for a while. We talked about the silliest things and they always loved to tell me about school. 

"Y/N Y/N! So today at school my friend told me she also likes Jin from BTS but I told her no because he's mine," said Nina.

"My friend likes Kookie so I don't care cause V's mine," said my other little sister Sana. 

I laughed and said, "Well as long as they know Jimin is my bias, then that's okay with me." 

I envy them. Still so young and still have so many dreams in mind. The world is still so big to them and reality has not been a hassle yet. When I was younger I had so many dreams. I wanted to be a singer, a writer, a teacher, and even the silliest thing which was to be a mermaid. Now all I can think about is how to secure my life. Money matters as much as it sucks to admit it. 

After our conversation, we each did our homework. That night they fell asleep in my room as we laid there and talked so, being the big sister I am, I decided to let them stay. We all slept on my queen sized bed as I turned on my alarm for the next day.