A Thousand Years ♥

41 THOUSAND: [The last day; To infinity and beyond]

Let's fast forward things.

Wala naman kasing matinong nangyari eh. Ganun pa din. Except for the fact na nalaman ko 'yung tungkol sakanila ni tita Mikee. But still, I just entertained guests. Umiyak. Inisip siya. Umiyak. Inisip siya. Umiyak... Umiyak... Crying has been a part of my daily routine until Vin died. At ngayun, hindi pa din nawawalan ng luha ang mata ko.

At 'yung diary niya, it was all about me. How we met, how everything started... And there was a special letter at the back which is actually retained in my head until now.

Today is the day.

Nailibing na siya.

I will no longer see him. But he will always remain in my heart.

"Krizza..." Someone said from behind. And I think I know who HE is.

Lumingon ako. "Bakit?" And I was right.

I was expecting... Cierro.

"Ano naman ang ginagawa mo dito?" I asked frankly with a bad expression on my face.

"I'm sorry." He said in a very light voice range, making it sincere and true.But should I believe him? Hmm.

"Sorry for what?"

"For everything."

"Tss."

"For doing that to you. For leaving you behind. For making you feel unimportant and useless. For threatening you. For making you feel unloved."

I just looked down. "Everything's done Cierro. Wala na tayong magagawa dun. Vin made me feel important and loved. Until now, he still does. At kung 'yan lang ang dinayo mo dito, I think you should leave. Thank you for the concern, tho."

"Will you forgive me?"

Everything just seemed to stopped when he asked me the question. I hate him and all the things he did. It's not bitterness that's dragging me to say or do such things to him. It's anger and hatred. But if Vin was alive, he would ask me to forgive Cierro.

I'm pretty sure, na mas gugustuhin niya 'yun.

So, my answer is final. "Okay.. I forgive you."

He hugged me. "Thank you Krizza. Thank you. Kahit na alam kong sinaktan kita ng maraming beses. S-salamat.." He then let go and walked away.

Isa ba 'to sa mga dahilan kung ba't ka namatay Vin? Para makipag-re-conciliate ako kay Cierro? Sana naman hindi. Dahil kung ganun, edi sana, dati pa, nag-sorry na 'ko sakanya. Baka sakaling, nagbago pa ang ikot ng mundo..

May kumalabit bigla sa'kin. "Krizza?" Si Aysha.

"Oh? Bakit ka nandito? Sinabi ni papa sa'yo?" Si papa talaga. Kahit kelan. ~+~

She forced a smile. "No Krizza." She suddenly hugged me. "Siya kasi ang lalaking mahal ko. Ang fiance ko. At ikaw pala..." She sobbed. "Ikaw pala ang mahal niya."

Gustong mahulog ng panga ko but all I could right now is hug her bock and respond. There's too much sadness to be surprised.

"Aysha, maswerte ka nga eh." I started. Ah crap. Eto nanaman tayo. "Nasabi mo sakanya na mahal mo siya. Nakasama mo, napakita mo. Eh ako?" I'm sobbing now. Nakakainis. Eto nanaman. "Wala. Nakasama ko siya pero ni hindi ko man lang nasabi lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sakanya."

She hugged me tighter. "I already let him go. But can you promise me one thing?"

"A-ano 'yun?" I mumbled.

"Please love him forever."

I let go of her and smiled, without even answering what she wanted me to do.

Because deep inside my heart, that's waht I'm planning to do. And that will never change. I will love him faithfully. I will love him with all my heart. I will love him as if I'm married to him. I will love him more than he loves me. I will love him... for eternity.

Vin, I hope you're happy where ever you are.

And a promise is a promise. Wala ka man dito. Sinasabi ko na sa'yo na...

Mamahalin kita hanggang tubuan ng chico ang mga roses at hanggang mawalan ng butas ng moon at magkaroon ng butas ang sun.

I will love you FOREVER.

A word you made me believe in.

Good bye...