Bound with fear

Iagan's Truth

……………. I curled up on the bed pulling the covers over me as I heard the yell and the door close. Iagan’s footfalls were heavy as he paused at the foot of the bed, before turning and going to the bathroom. I had been in this life for such a short space of time and everything was horrid the pain I felt from the memories I had from the visions a constant reminder of who I was… the pain and emptiness I now felt from trying to be a woman that I obviously wasn’t, was I truly a woman at all or was I just something made for my Fathers’ will… Silent tears wet the pillow under my head as the door to the bathroom opened and Iagan walked out.

“Mo Bhean?” his voice was low “Kendra… Please”

“You need to rest Guardian” I managed to get out “we have training in the morning… I want to be fully ready for when my Father comes back”

“Kendra… what happened I need to…” I turned to look at him

“I understand now” I felt my lip quiver “Things for me have to be different… go rest I’m sorry I angered you into doing what you did”

“Kendra please” I turned away from him

“goodnight Guardian” I heard words muttered as he walked away I surled in on myself tighter hoping that maybe I would go to sleep and wouldn’t wake…..

…………….. “Mo Bhean” Anya was shaking me “It has gone noon” I sat up and looked round Robbie was off to the side his arms folded his head lowered. Iagan was sitting on the couch his elbows resting on his knees. I smiled at Anya.

“Thank you… how are you feeling?”

“Well thank you” she smiled as she busied herself bringing out my clothes “The wounds are all but healed”

“Good I’m glad” I winced a little as I moved off the bed the ache between my legs was a wakeup call.

“Maybe you shouldn’t train today” Iagan looked over his shoulder at me

“I will train and I will be ready when my father returns” I looked at him “Do you not want to teach me anymore”

“I have no Choice Mo Bhean” he bowed his head.

“You have a choice Guardian” I put my feet on the floor “I will train with Robbie” his head snapped up and round “you will have no consequences from my father that I will guarantee”

“I will train you” Iagan got off the couch “No one can predict your moves as I can and no one other than you can predict my moves” he rested his hands on his sisters shoulders “You’re blood and my blood are mixed” I heard an intake of breath from Robbie and Anya.

“Iagan You and Robbie wait in the hall” Anya looked up at her brother “I will help the Mistress to dress she is safe with me” she put her hand over his he dropped his head and nodded he walked across the room and out into the hall Robbie following closing the door softly after him….

…….. “You have her blood in you” Robbie blurted out “and she has yours?”

“Aye” Iagan nodded

“But… I mean that… well”

“It leaves a bond” Iagan looked at him and held out his hand palm up showing the scar running across it “I was told to let my blood mix with hers” he gritted his teeth “I wanted to drive this blade in to the Masters heart and then take off his head” he looked round to make sure no one was listening “For what he did to my family… for the life he’s made Anya and I lead for the past 80 years… I should be old and probably dead by now Robbie My sister and I should have had our own lives and families not tortured and made to live every day like living in hell… You got here 20 years after I did and you still look and feel what”

“Twenty” Robbie dropped his eyes “I understand the pain, I fell the sorrow knowing that all our Families are dead and killed at the hand of Gregor Vandes while his powers make us not age until we displease him” His eyes went back to Iagan’s.

“I got close enough to him that he trusted me” Iagan shook his head “and then She…” he gestured wildly to the door “She came a long and” Tears welled in Iagan’s eyes “I have to protect her I have to protect part of him in her… I sense what she feels, I know her emotions, She’s mine as much as I’m hers… and I’m fearful for her we’re bound together with Fear right now. She doesn’t understand what is is going to have to do”

“But last night?”

“She touched me first” Iagan paced the floor she wanted me inside of her “I’m not just saying it I knew that was what she wanted and I tried so damn hard to push her away but it was like a drug… like I had to be with her… I kissed her while I touched her… I’ve never kissed a whore while fucking her… I touched her body and kissed her body Robbie in ways I’ve never done before” Robbie raised his eyebrows “What you saw and heard was her being taken for the first time ever” Robbie closed his eyes and ran his hand through his hair. “I’m her guardian but I don’t think The master knows how we’re bound to each other and I know she doesn’t understand it”…………