Bound with fear

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………………… “Anya Leave us for a while please” I looked at her and smiled “Oh and I need to wear something nice for this evening I’m being taken for dinner and then out”

“Yes Mo Bhean” she nodded she paused eyeing Iagan before she walked into my bedroom and closed the door.

“Sit” Iagan pointed to the couch I raised and eyebrow at him “Seriously Mo Bhean you think I’m in the frame of mind to worry about upsetting you”

“No you never are Guardian” I literally spat at him “My feelings rarely seem to matter when you open your mouth” I tipped my head and walked round to the chair by the window and sat down. I could hear his teeth grinding together

“You could have died out there” he moved round the couch and came over to me his eyes filled with rage “You’re in a city where you’re silly and naive about what would and could happen to you… It’s bad enough I have to deal with your Father watching every mistake I make and you’re Brother worries me… you are all over the task set for you” I got to my feet “Sit down”

“I will not”

“I hadn’t finished”

“Why are you punishing me for doing what I was told if you don’t care… You’re my guardian you’ve made that all too clear you do not desire me” I tried to hold my voice strong “So I have to do what I was made to do” Iagan’s color drained from his face and his eyes dropped to the floor “I’ve realized I’m a tool to finish a job nothing more even to my Father I wasn’t made to fill the gap he felt for the loss of his sons… I was made for revenge and if it means I get at least the slightest chance of someone even for a short time treating me with warmth and holding me making me feel like a normal woman… then it’s a chance I will take” I walked round him “By most I’m something that can’t be touched by others I’m a danger and not worthy of affection… be my guardian Iagan but do not try to confuse me with your false jealousy… I offered myself to you and you rejected it after you’d gotten inside of me… I understand false hope now” I walked by him to my room and closed the door after me.

“Mo Bhean” Anya’s voice was low, I took a deep breath and looked at her trying to smile and feeling the strain in my cheeks as I did “I hope you will forgive me for talking this way but… My brother… he also has a duty to your father and a hatred that burns him” she wrung her hands as I walked to the couch and sat down I patted the seat next to me and she walked slowly over and sat down.

“You’re brother confuses me” I sighed taking her hands “Life confuses me Anya”

“If I told you a little about why would it help?” Anya bit her lip “About his life” I nodded slowly

“I know you were both payment for a debt”

“We were” she looked down “My Father owed yours money for taxes he owed and we couldn’t pay the farm had failed that year the crops had been washed away in heavy rains and disease had attacked the few cattle we had… One night The Master showed up at the door when my Father was still in the fields with Iagan, and he told my mother she would have to make the payment in part to him” I watched the fear and pain behind her eyes and held her hands tighter in mine “He didn’t know I was there and he took he on the floor in the kitchen as she screamed for him to stop and my Father to help her… He did to her what he did to me” her voice cracked “I went after him with a blade belonging to my father but he stopped me, he lashed my hands with something that held me in place it scared me it seemed so evil” she looked at me “My Father walked in and saw my mother bleeding to death from the things your Father had done to her he had the same reaction I did and lunged at the Master but your Father wasn’t prepared and Mine stabbed him in the heart with a knife” I felt my eyes grow wide “The Master laughed and pulled out the knife and…. tears streamed down her face “And he plunged the knife into my father’s throat” I dropped her hand and covered the gasp that came from my mouth “You were told to pay Iain” she recited her eyes closed now “Your wife paid with her blood, you are now paying with your blood” she took a deep breath “You’re children are mine now… Your daughter’s body is mine, your sons spirit is mine payment will be in full from them” she opened her eyes and looked at me “I’m almost 100 years old and look at me I still look like I’m eighteen… Iagan became the head of our family by watching helplessly our parents slaughtered, he’s tried to get us away many times and we’ve been punished for it and then… she looked toward the still closed door knowing her brother was on the other side

“Then what?” I asked

“he became the chosen Guardian and he couldn’t see me for weeks on end” she took a deep breath and wiped her eyes on the backs of her hands “Then you came along and the two of your we’re bound together and he’s…” she hesitated

“He’s what?” I frowned

“Mo Bhean my brother is in…”

“Anya fetch food of your mistress” Iagan said from the doorway “you are crossing a boundary sister that it’s not your place to cross”

“I asked her to talk” I defended Anya “No man should silence a woman”

“My sister has been through enough in her lifetime that stories are confusing to her” Iagan Stepped aside and let Anya walk from the room “Please do not pry into our lives it’s of no worry of yours” he dropped his eyes

“It is my worry” I got up and walked over to him “Learning what I have how do you think I feel Iagan Don’t you think I’d rather not have to kill my own brother for a man bent on nothing but getting what he wants”

“Then change it Kendra you have the ability to make it so different” He grabbed my hands

“Guardian… is it your place to grab my daughter” my Father appeared in the middle of the room the air misting round him “I should have broken the spirit in you more you will be…”

“Father… he is mine remember I will punish him in my way” I jumped in “and I did not expect you”

“No I no you didn’t but I had Seth snooping round in the house looking for information while we were here yesterday”

“Iagan leave us” I instructed, He nodded and walked from the room leaving me face to face with my Father and the new story I had of him screaming round in my head…………………….