Angels Cry (Before You Exit - Toby Mcdonough)

Chapter 25

Okay never in my entire life that I would get kiss, especially on the lips by my crush. Yes, I totally just admitted I had feelings for, Toby. But there's one problem. Technically almost the world world has a crush on Toby because erm.. I don't know? He is amazingly good looking (not like his brothers aren't, they are!) and he is in a band so. Yeah, there's practically nothing wrong with it. 

And also I felt those typical butterflies and some sparks going on which made me thinking, do I love him already?! I'm fourteen, yeah that's the state where you develop crushes and whatnot. And yes, it's normal don't have to remind. But, I think it's too fast. I mean we just met and had known each other for quite some times now. I wonder if Toby had feel those things too about me.

But I know he'll never because I'm fat. I can't really fit into those freaking skinny jeans like all those models wear. I can't wear nice designers clothes because my boobs are big. And that's why, I hate myself. People always constantly reminding me that I'm fat because they would say, "Wow, you eat a lot! You must be hungry, no wonder you gain some weight." 

Almost the entire school bullies me because of my weight. That made me more insecure about my look and they don't even know it because they don't even know how it feel to be call shitty names. I just wish they would understand the pain all these victims are going through a lot. Bullies think they know shit just like Sherlock but let's face it they're dumb like a walrus. I know it's not a good one but I got nothing and that's just pops in my head out of nowhere!

Anyways, back to the point about Toby. He will never like or love me, he is too amazing and sweet and handsome to be with a shitty girl like me. He deserve someone else special. Not me. Nah uh. That will never ever happen. HA, in your wildest dreams. 

Yes, I just quote One Direction's song Best Song Ever. Don't judge me, I love them. 

Enough of me ranting. I talk too much time for me to sleep, good night. 

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As much as I love my sleep, my phone alarm just have to ring and interrupts my beautiful dream. Well, another day of school and I'm not too pump nor excited about this. Who is ever excited for school? And worse, who discover Monday? For all I know, he or she may have die because someone had killed them as the people hated Mondays. Well, sad life for them I guess. 

I finally get out from my nest which is my bed. I definitely don't sleep on nest is uncomfortable and who on earth sleeps on sticks? Birds. After doing my morning routine I change into some casual clothes because I certainly don't dress like those Victoria Secret's model on the runway to impress anyone. Only the girl who destroyed slash calling names and her friends do that. 

Seriously, what's there to impress when you're in school? Nobody would even remember what you wore so why dress up so much? 

I run down the stairs to get some breakfast but only to see Toby there! Like always. 

"Good morning, Toby!" I said happily. 

"Morning, Rose. Someone seems happy huh?" He greeted me back then raise an eyebrow in confuse by my happy voice. 

"Well I don't know. Maybe I'm in a good mood, and I hope that it wouldn't be destroyed." I mutter, thinking that Kelsie might be the one. Or not, her friends. 

"Then just don't run into her. I guess? Try to stay far away as possible." He stated like that was the most easiest thing. 

"Toby, you do know that she is like.. everywhere! Every fucking-" 

"Language young lady." He chuckle and smirk at me while I just roll my eyes. 

"As I was saying, she is like in every corner I turn!" I groan frustratingly. I grab a bowl and pour my cereal and milk into it then jabbing a spoon in it. I sat down in front of him and ate silently. 

"Then.. walk away?" He said but more like a question. 

"That's not easy, Toby. She'll stop me and well.. you know the rest." I mumble not wanting to say it out loud. Thanks, Toby, now I'm feeling the jolly mood! *thumbs down* 

*time skip*

Okay, still no sign of that evil girl around and her friends. Phew! I'm still good, I'm not gonna die in this race! Wait, I'm talking rubbish now. You see whenever I'm nervous or scared, I'll talk rubbish so sometimes people find me weird. I'm surprise Toby doesn't noticed this about me. Huh, weird. 

As I creep to a corner I bob my head to the side- just like a ninja- to check if she was there with her evil wittle friends and nope! I'm gonna survive! Woohoo! Rose, like a ninja! *pose like a horrible ninja* yeah I'm never gonna do that again. 

My heart sank in relieve and I could feel my shoulders lighten up a little not until I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders and someone saying.

"Boo!" He screamed, making me scream 10 times more and almost jumping into the air about 5ft of the ground. I think. 

"Holy shit!" I bent over on my back and rested my hands against my knees for support. Once I got back my breathing, I look up to see, Toby, standing there trying to control his laughter which is trying to escape his lips. I shoot him a glare making him even more red and couldn't control it anymore so.. He laughed. Loudly. 

I huff out and pout at his little reaction on my oh-so-funny-horrible action just now. What. A. Friend! I slap him on the arm and that made him to stop laughing like a seal (whoopsie daisy..). 

"Why'd you do that for!?" I whispered-yelled at him, my eyes still shooting daggers at him.

"Sorry, I just thought that you shouldn't be too worry about, Kelsie being here today." He answered. Hold up those sentence. Did he just say I shouldn't be too worry about Kelsie being here today?! Oh, so, Kelsie is not here! KELSIE'S NOT HERE EVERYONE! SHE'S FREAKING NOT HERE! 

No wonder her absence made people look so, freakishly normal huh? Well, her presence kills me so hooray to me! I'm the normal one in the entire school! Except for Toby. He doesn't like her but she and her icky wicky fingers just have to crawl closer to him! Yes, I just made a stupid line. But it's good right? 

Yes. 

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