Angels Cry (Before You Exit - Toby Mcdonough)

Chapter 37

Rose's P.O.V 

"Happy birthday, Rose!" The party poppers started to pop out loudly. The noise thingy started to sound and I looked at my birthday cake, it was chocolate, my favourite and it had written in icing, Happy Birthday Rose! I am finally 15 years old and don't feel anything special. Connor and Riley gave me hugs and wishing me. Auntie Susan also gave me one, wishing me happy birthday. Lastly Toby had gave a hug and a kiss on the cheek with a present he had bought. I was surprise of course because I did not want anyone to spent anything for me. Just a simple birthday cake and the people who I love are with me is enough. Also, we are skyping with Liz and Janelle along with my mum. 

They each had bought me presents which are waiting for me at home and I am really grateful for them. I finally feel so happy in my entire life. Usually my birthdays are just my mum and I heading for some fast food restaurants or something else and eat there. But now, I finally got to experience this nice family birthday celebration for a long time. When my dad passed away, my birthday were celebrated really gloomy but I still appreciate everything my mum did for me. I am lucky to still have her. 

Of course my aunt's and uncles would send me letters. My cousin's would either skype me and telling me how much they miss me so much. I truly do miss them. I never got to see them so frequently because our families are straight busy likes bees. It is hard.

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Finally we were at the colour run event where the boys would be performing. They also did a vlog video about them in Singapore and it was really cool. They will be posting on YouTube pretty soon, once this tour ends than it would be up a week after that. Right now, they are doing a little sound check before the real thing comes on. I was waiting backstage with auntie Susan, doing nothing but waiting. Toby and I are okay right now, though I am still hurt a little. 

Friends. The word where love would probably grew much more than that. It turns into a relationship. It is a big word, and contains a lot of things. Promises, trusts and caring. But there is more than that of course. Promises is where you keep his or her's secrets safely with you. You are not suppose to be spreading it around because then you will lose their trust. Now since we are on that, trust is a huge word. By gaining one's trust, it is important because you want your spouse to know that he or she could trust you and by trusting you, it means that you have to be their's too.

Caring; everyone gets hurt and you would be the one caring about it. When they are feeling hurt, you would feel it too and probably do anything to make them forget about the past. Caring is like the both of you is grown with each other, feeling each other emotions and getting protective if someone ever tries to hurt them. And this is what relationship is all about.

Sometimes I wonder if Toby really loves me. I am literally confused by all his actions towards me. Is he trying to tell me that he loves me? Or was he doing this just to make me think he loves me? Or was it all just some stupid thing and sooner or later, he just walk out of my life like that? No, wait. Toby would not do such a thing to me. He promised. He promised to stick with me though the up's and down's. He promised to help me get through my past. But, is this all just a lie? 

You seriously got into a habit of thinking negatively aren't you? Oh look who came to stop by and interrupts my thoughts. 

Look, I am not in the mood. Just go do your thing and leave me alone. I spoke. Well of course not loudly, if not they will think I am a psycho girl who talks to herself unexpectedly. 

I am just trying to help. Pfft. I did not reply after that because I don't know what to say anymore. Wow, I literally just push my own thought away which was trying to help me. Why do I keep doing that? Pushing people away from my problems? I feel like my brain is probably going to explode after thinking all of this. I don't even know what to do now. I don't even know what is going on between me and Toby.