Angels Cry (Before You Exit - Toby Mcdonough)

Chapter 47

My world just stops right then and there. The entire room was silent that their neighbour's cat was meowing a little too loudly, or even a pin drop could be heard. No one made any movements or spoke a word we were very stiff in this silent. I was still looking at Toby with watery eyes. In my head, I was hoping that what Connor had said was not true and just my imagination that came across. Maybe even I heard wrongly because I usually don't pay much attention, he could possibly said something else. But then why did no one corrected him? So I guess I got my answer right in the face, just like I plan. I just did not knew it would hurt this much. Does this include your heart aching too?

I stood up from the couch and sprinted right out of the door. Blurry vision was shielding my eyes and I almost had rammed into a pole on my way back. I swung the front door of my house open and slam it shut once again. Locking it behind me so that no one can enter or follow me in. Right now I need time, my personal space and just rot in my room until I am a cave woman. I shut my eyes tight, placing a hand over my hurting chest and lay down on the floor all sprawled out.

How could Toby do this to me. Why today, why does it has to be now? Yesterday, I thought my fairy tale book was already unfolding and pages are turning, revealing what would happen next. I just did not expect this to happen.

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It was a school day today, except the thing is, I did not show up because I can't face "him" today and by him I meant Toby. I could not face him tomorrow either. My mum realised how horrible my stage is and felt like I should stay home, so she let me off not going to school for today. And she took a day off from work because she is scared if I do something stupid to myself. Like that would happen, okay it almost happen yesterday

"Rose, come on out. You can't possibly just stay in your room and not even take a shower at least!" My mum scolded me from the opposite side of my room. For one whole day straight, I have been up in my room rotting just like I said. I had not taken a shower and even brushed my teeth since after that. I did not even eat lunch or dinner yesterday and my mum got pretty worried sick about me. She has been climbing up and down just to call me out of my room and watch some television with her but I declined the offer.

"Like I said, I don't want to and if this include the rest of my life then I will." I yelled, my voice sounded hoarse because I cried myself to sleep last night. I have not done anything stupid yet but I am trying my best to control my temptation.

"I know it is hard to take it in but at least take a shower. I will make you your favourite meal if you do so," my mum sang, trying to persuade me into coming out from my comfort zone. Well, she got me. I do need to eat, my stomach's been growling since midnight and it was annoying. I got off from my bed and my back instantly hunch down a little. I slowly walk towards the door and twisted the doorknob, swinging it open to be surprise by Liz and my mum standing there with a grin on their face.

"Finally, she is alive." Liz exaggerated and gave a side hug before pushing me away from her and pinch her nose and giving me a disgusting look. "Ew, you should really take a shower and brush your teeth. Now go." Shooing me away from them, I enter the bathroom with a dull look on my face that I wore. I stood in front of the mirror and take a whole good look of myself before cringes at the thought of having under eye circles and feeling icky.

Ugh, who is that girl standing in the mirror? Oh, it's me. An ugly, filthy and nothing worth girl. No one likes you. They hate you. The devil's voice spoke in my head. Making me regret feeling insecure and throwing hate at myself. I quickly shook the voice away and stare back at myself again. Sighing, I spoke, "What are you, Rose?" Then stripping out of my clothes an heading into the shower.