Angels Cry (Before You Exit - Toby Mcdonough)

Epilogue (Bonus Chapter)

Rose's P.O.V

I was in my room. Actually, an empty room to be precise - staring into thin air. Most of my furniture and things have been taken out and never to be seen again. Nothing much change but only I. I was in a spirt form, or a ghostly form, wondering around. I guess I still look the same. I don't really know where to go actually and I am just... Stuck down here, lost, trapped in this world.

I can see it now. How different the world is today and with each every minute or seconds, there would obviously someone out there crying because of depression and a life being taken away. It just made me realise how society treat everyone like. When we say we shouldn't judge a book by its cover, well, obviously most people are already judging. I hate to hear it when it comes out from the devil itself.

But back to the reality. I admit, I am scared right now. I have been scared since I transform. The people who I love, can't see me and talk to me but I can. I can't touch them though, it would just freak them out and cause them to have a reaction and runaway from me. I wish to tell them I am still here and is visiting them. But I can't.

I feel like crying but I don't want to. Haven't I already cried enough?

I have been watching everyone lately and seeing how they are moving on with their life since my "new life" began. I was deep in pain when I saw them trying to hide their sullen face. They're in pain. That cause me to feel like someone just plunge in a knife in me. I have been seeing Toby hanging out more and more with his friends lately. Maybe to getaway from the thought that I was gone and not beside him anymore. I watch him suffer as well. It kills me more than him though.

He would sometimes take out the letters I wrote to him. He cry. He cry every night and it hurts me to death that to know that he misses me so damn much. I wish I could comfort him though. But, I can't. He also found a new girl friend that I think he is very fond of her. I admit, she is much prettier and better than me. She takes care of him way and much better than I did to Toby. All I did was being a cry baby. Crawling to him and just to get pity from someone.

That girl was way better than me.

She was the girl every boy wants in their life. In Toby's life.

And that girl would now be replacing me for Toby.

It hurts to know that though.

She has got the looks.

She has a good life.

She has nothing that crumbles her.

I, on the other hand, was way different.

I was such a bad girlfriend for not sticking beside him.

I promised Toby to stay by him but I fail to do so and to think about it, maybe I was taken away for a good reason.

I can't even take control of my own problems and all I did was cut myself and drowned myself in hurtful words that I say to myself.

I was the weak one, but eventually grew a little bit stronger each day.

Toby and Andrea are hanging out today. I might have stalked Toby a little bit too much now. The both of them are in Toby's room and I was watching from afar. They are laughing, happy faces were shown. It cracks a smile to my face when I saw Toby laugh so carefree with Andrea. I can see the way Toby stares into her eyes with fire in his eyes. His gestures towards her were so obvious that he likes her.

Although it is such a terrible sight to see that my "boyfriend" is hanging out with someone else, I feel kind of relieve that he is trying to get over me and just be with other people and to find his own true love. Sometimes, getting over things is hard but it is just for the best.