The New Girl

Chapter 58 - Feelings

Harry Styles.

I knew asking for this was something I shouldn't have done, especially when she just told me yesterday she needed space. I just couldn't take it anymore.

I wanted to tell her how I was feeling. I wanted to explain every single detailed feeling I felt for her, but I couldn't even put it into words. This wasn't something easy for me to do, especially because I haven't done it in a long time. I refused to let her leave this room until I can show her how much she means to me.

If words can't help me do that, then actions will. I needed to do this, I needed to put every ounce of my feelings for her in this one kiss in order for her to understand.

I looked into those beautiful, brown eyes of her and felt my heart race. This girl has such a huge affect on me, as I do to her, and I'm not even trying to push it away or hide it anymore.

Before, I'd always make sure feelings were never involved. Feeling things caused me to go soft and that leads to getting played, so I'm always the one to play the person. It's not something I'm proud of, but it's the only way I felt like I was okay.

None of that mattered anymore.

Everything I did before I met Aurora no longer mattered. I didn't care if I went soft, I didn't care if I was showing how I felt, no more hiding anything. This was about me and Aurora and I'm willing to show her and tell her everything if she lets me.

"Yes." She whispered.

As soon as she said this, I crashed my lips against hers and felt my whole body jolt with electricity... now there's something I've never said before.

The feeling of Aurora's lips on mine was indescribable, something I've never felt before... not even while I was so in love with Daisy. As I've said before, no one can make me feel like Aurora does.

Never once did I think such an innocent girl could tame me and actually change the way I see things. This one girl has done so much to me, she's changed me for the better and I can't complain. I want to be good for her. I want to be the one that makes her smile and actually brightens her day, not the one that hurts her.

I know I haven't exactly done a good job at that, but it's not easy to just suddenly flip a switch and start being the perfect guy for her. I obviously have a shit ton of things to work on, but it's worth it if it means I can be the best for her.

Our lips moved in sync as she ran her hands through my hair. She wanted- no, she needed this. We both did. We both needed each other so much that we don't even know how to express it without physical contact.

I could feel her teeth grazed against my bottom lip, surprising me. I was about to speak when my lip was suddenly taken between her teeth and pulled on.

I pulled away and looked at her, obviously surprised, "Holy fuck, Aurora." I breathed out.

She smiled and hid her face in my chest, "Sorry, I got a little carried away."

I wrapped my arms around her, "Don't be, that was- that was good." I stuttered, swallowing the lump in my throat.

Just having her in my arms gives me this beautiful feeling and that means a lot. I don't usually hug girls, especially after we've made out. I knew this girl was going to have some sort of effect on me, I just didn't think it would make this big of an impact on me. I'm not complaining, though, I really want this to happen and I really mean that.

I can finally say this to her without any hesitation. I've never been more sure about anything before in my life, "I love you Aurora."

Her head, quickly, looked up at me and I could see just how shocked she was from her widened eyes. Hell! I was shocked too! I haven't said those words to a girl in such a long time.

I could feel her hands fist my shirt as she placed her head against my chest, "I love you, Harry." She whispered.

I kissed her head and finally felt at ease. We have a huge journey ahead of us and I have no idea how this is going to affect us, but I know one things for sure: I'm never going to give up on us, no matter how difficult it gets. I care way too much about Aurora than to just allow her to get away from me again.

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Short chapter! I know, I'm sorry! I'm doing my best to write as many as I can, so I can update them all at once to make up for my absence, and this one just happened to be short. The next one won't be as short, I promise.

-Ashley xxxxx