Joe sugg imagine's

37. Regrets

Authors note: Listen to the song while reading

Y/N p.o.v
I walked into the flat, dropping my keys on the side and slumping onto my worn-down sofa. I had the worse day at work, stressed to the max I just needed to have a relaxing afternoon to calm myself down. It was around 8pm and I had just come out of the bath with a face mask on when I got a text from Joe asking me to meet him. Confused to why he wanted to see me all of a sudden I agreed to go because I missed being in his presence and he was the only one who knew how to calm me down.

I washed off my face mask and got dressed into my comfy clothes not bothering about my appearance. Getting the keys from the side I drove my crappy, barely affordable car to the meeting place which was up on a hill which overviewed the city. Me and Joe first met up there on New years eve 2 years ago but went our separate ways a year later. I only ever got the occasional text and twitter tags from Joe so it was totally unexpected of him to ask me to meet him.

On the way there I listened to the mixtape he had made for my car, I have never took it out actually, I just couldn't bring myself to do it. The back story to me and joe was that we were friends, like best friends, I ended up living with him at one point but everything went downhill once winter came and we went our separate ways.He went with his new girlfriend to a new flat, leaving me and Caspar behind and I had to find a flat of my own because Caspar went to be with his mum in South Africa for a while. I understood Caspar's reasons but Joe just packed up and left without any warnings, I can't say I wasn't angry because I was but I've let it go now, it has been a year so I kind of have to.

I pulled up and saw Joe's car parked up, getting out of my car and locking it I saw him do the same as he had seen me pull up in the car park. I smiled and walked over to him, it felt weird to see him in real form again but it also gave me a rush of excitement to see him again. As I got closer my smile began to fade as his eyes were blood-shot and his cheeks were tear stained and his lips trembled.

How I longed to just wrap my arms around him and tell him everything's okay but my awkwardness was sending alerts of 'is it socially acceptable to do that when you hadn't seen the person in nearly over a year'. I walked closer and I didn't have to listen to my initial thought as joe threw himself at me, hugging me for dear life and eventually beginning to sob into my shoulder. All I could do is hug him back, shushing his tear and telling him that everything would be okay, even though I didn't know what was going on. All I knew was I had to be there for a friend and thats what I was going to do.

I managed to calm Joe down a bit and we sat on the front of his car like people do in the movies, looking out onto the sparkling lights of London with the spring breeze flowing threw our hair. "Whats going on?" I asked showing him a sympathetic smile, Joe refused to look in my direction instead just stared at the huge city before him. "It's Maddie" his girlfriend, " well not even her... its just life" he began, I nodded in reply, "I don't know what i'm doing, Maddie was cheating on me, I haven't uploaded a video in a month, i'm blocking out Zoe and Alfie and I don't even talk to the two people who mean the most to me anymore" he got out all in one.

It was a lot of information to take in at once, "wait, Maddie cheated on you" I said surprised, she always seemed suspicious but once he left with her I thought she must of been a trustworthy girl, I guess I was wrong. "5 months" he said glaring out at the lights, still refusing to acknowledge my existence, I wrap a arm around him. "It'll get better" I say trying my best, I never really knew what to do in these situations except offer my comfort and love.

"After all my past used to be my future" he said looking to the floor, I squeeze his shoulder lightly, "Joe you are loved, we want to be here for you, you need to let us in" I say softly, "as for the future, you can't control it non of us can, we just have to find the best of what we can and not let things of the past get to us all the time" I say pecking him on the cheek. "Joe Sugg you are loved, by many people, including myself and Caspar and you sister, please don't let the past haunt you like this" I say.

He finally looks at me and genuinely smiles at me, "regrets" he whispered, I barely make out what he had said. "regrets" he whispered a little louder this time but instead of waiting for me to reply his lips connected to mine. Passionately we kissed above the lights of the beautiful city below us, pulling away "regrets?" I asked in a whisper, "I regret not being with you all these years we have known each other" he whispered back. He kissed me again, my heart pounded against my chest and I felt butterflies erupted inside my stomach, I loved Joe and nothing could stop that.