Seeking Hope [BoyxBoy]

Chapter {3}

 A/N: Vote please because you're awesome! <3

Seth is played by Alex Pettyfer. You have a pic to the side. Gosh he's so damn sexy..

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(Jayson's POV)

I woke up in the same hospital room. I've got to know it now, maybe too well.. My chest hurt pretty bad, each breath I took only made it worse. I tugged at the bed sheets as memories began flashing in front of my eyes..

That man, that beautiful man similar to a god that I met at the hospital exit, when I didn't want nothing but to lose myself..

I felt that he knew.. I felt he knew that if he wouldn't caught my wrist back there, I'd be lost forever. The kindness in his eyes.. it moved me. Even my mother, from the fewer memories I have with her, not even she has looked at me like that. But I think, there was more.. I saw a deep pain in his eyes. 

And how he was stripping my soul. I felt that he could read me like an open book, even if I learned years ago how to hide my emotions from the cruel eyes of the world. How could he do that?

I felt that he knew me, better than myself.. God, I felt too many things!

My thoughts were interrupted by the squeak made by the door. I could guess who it might be, but I didn't want to even think about it.. I closed my eyes for two seconds and took a deep breath.

Jace was sitting in the doorway.. again. God,what the hell does he want now? I turned my head to look at him and I could see he wasn't too sure by his movements. I strongly bit my lower lip. I didn't want to see him. His rejection towards me hurt me more than he'll ever know. It felt like someone stabbed me in the heart.. I couldn't stand the thought that he despises me. That he despises me too..

''Jayson..'' he said softly, making a few steps closer me. I didn't say anything. I didn't know what to say and I didnt't want even to try..

''Jayson, maybe you are wrong..'' His voice was now louder, indicating me he finally new what he wanted to say. He sat on the bed and then, breathed in deeply. I remained silent.

''Dad's in jail.'' he stated when he saw I won't say anything, and that was the moment I looked at him surprised. ''He admitted that he hit you every day. He said he beat you up so bad, he was surprised you're still alive. He described everything..'' His voice faded so much at the end, I had to make an effort to hear everything. Indeed, even I didn't know how or why I was still alive. I didn't live all this time for someone or something. Everyone left me.

''You went through a lot. You are scared, confused and you have all the right in the world to be. You ain't gay, Jayson..'' he ended, fixing me with his eyes.

I was stunned. I couldn't believe it. He didn't accept me.. no scratch that. He didn't even believe me! I felt anger rise inside of me.

My own brother is doubting my words. He questioned  who I was. I bit my lips so hard, I think I felt a drop of blood on my lower lip.

 ''Get out.'' I said in a low voice. I was trying so hard to get a hold of my temper. It was obvious that he'll never accept me, who I really am. He was disgusted with me too, my own brother..

"Jayson..''

"Get. Out.'' I didn't shout, but the pain I was feeling was beyond imagination. Somewhere inside me, I really hoped that he'd support me. I was so wrong..

He didn't say anything. I didn't speak either. He stared at me intensely and I retured the stare. Then, he.. got up and.. left the room. He left. He just left, making it clear he doesn't want me in his life anymore. He didn't stay by my side. No..