Seeking Hope [BoyxBoy]

Chapter {11}

A/N: Okay .. I realized I’ve neglected Angie, Zeke and Caleb .. Poor babies! So, this chapter and the one after it shall be about them, like filler chapters or so, but I’m gonna make sure they won’t be boring at all for you. Don't worry, Seth and Jayson will be here too, but I won't exactly focus on them, okay? Okay..

Enjoy reading! :)

~~~~~~~~

 (Angie’s POV)

‘’Stop..’’ I cried as Zeke pushed me on the bed, a smirk on his face. He pressed his body against mine, not bothering to support himself on his elbows so he was almost crushing me.

‘’Stop?’’ He whispered before he kissed me roughly on the lips. With one hand he was rubbing my left breast making me moan in pleasure. ‘’You mean, keep going Zeke..’’ He purred in my ear making me shiver. We have to stop this..

‘’We’re related for God’s sake!’’ I tried one last time hoping he’d change his mind. ‘’Please .. Don’t do this.’’ I looked at him only to see his amused look.

‘’You’re acting like you don’t want it at all..’’ He squeezed my ass hard and bit my lower lip. I tried to hold back a moan that escaped my lips anyways. ‘’Don’t fool yourself princess .. You want to feel my d*ck in you.. You want me to make you bounce and scream my name all night long.. I know what you want..’’

He thrust onto me not bothering to prepare me first, to make me feel good. I let out a cry of pai,n feeling the tears rolling down on my cheeks.  He saw me crying .. I know he did, but he didn’t stop. He began to move, thinking that my whimpers were in fact signs that I was enjoying myself. With each of his thrusts, my body was moving with him. He was thrusting harder and harder I thought something would break inside of me.

I screamed his name, but not in pleasure .. I screamed his name because I wanted him to stop, just a little .. but I knew this would never happen. He’s the kind of person that doesn’t give a damn about how others feel until he’s not satisfied..

‘’Zeke..’’ I started trying to tell him to stop.

‘’Yes, princess..’’ He bit my neck giving me a hickey. ‘’I know you like it..’’

***

After a few hours, Zeke was lying breathless near me on the bed and in a second he was fast asleep. I managed to lift myself, so I was in a sitting position on the bed. After that, I broke down in tears.

This has happened enough times already.. I won’t call it exactly rape because ..it isn’t. I would never admit that in front of him, but the first time .. I wanted it. Even if I said we're related, that was only an excuse. Love is love and it doesn't matter what he or she is to you .. brother, sister, cousin or same sex as you.

We managed to act normal in front of the others, so no one suspected anything by now.. Our first time was .. so painful for me. He wasn't gentle, even if he knew I was a virgin. Nor was he all the times we've done it. Always, it's only how he wants it to be. Every time he's so rough .. a savage beast. I thought making love has to be pleasant for both sides.. I don't even know if he loves me, but the worst part is that I ..love him. I love him when I shouldn't.. 

I've always felt jealous on Jayson and what he has. I saw how Seth looks at him like he's his everything. He looks at him like if one day Jayson died, Seth would kill himself because he couldn't live anymore. I saw how sad they get when they're apart from each other.