Dark (The Past Never Changes)

Chapter 46

Devin's POV

I'm nervous today. Today is the day. I'm going to Bree and Kaylee's. I'm gonna apologize to Kaylee. And I hope she apologizes too. I mean it was both of our fault. But I miss her. I miss Bree. I miss Mariah. I miss our friends. I miss always being together.

I asked Tony for a ride over. If something goes bad, I'm really going to need him. I hope all goes well though. I hope they understand and I'm ready to understand as well. I walk up to the front door and take a deep breath. One of two things can happen, hugs and apologies or yelling and screaming. The door opens and I put on a fake smile.

"Oh, hey Dev." Bree smiles.

"Hey. Is Kaylee here? I was hoping we could talk." I explain.

"Oh. Yeah. Come in." She steps aside and allows me in.

"Thanks." I smile at her.

"No problem. KAYLEE! COMERE!" She yells. And walks towards the kitchen.

"Bree." I say and she turns around. "I want you to be here too." I tell her and she nods slowly.

"What do you wa-" Kaylee stops and pauses. "Hey." She says to me.

"Hi." I offer a small smile.

"So Devin came wanting to speak with us. Do you have a minute?" Bree asks Kaylee.

"Yeah." She says almost not hear able.

Bree leads us out to the patio and we all take a seat. I know no one else is going to start the conversation, and besides I came here to talk so I should just start it anyways.

"Okay, so I just want to apologize for getting so upset with you and then pushing you away because of it. I should've been there for you because that was one of the times you really needed me and I was horrible towards you. But I'm not taking all the blame for this. I do admit what I did was wrong, but it doesn't change the fact of how I felt when everyone else knew and I didn't. And I just want you to know I felt left out and untrusted. But I hope this can be the start to solve our differences." I finish and look from Kaylee to Bree. "And Bree I'm sorry I quit talking to you after Kaylee and I's fight. I thought that because you live with her, you took her side." I look at Bree and she kind of looks down.

"Look I'm sorry too Dev. I tried so many times to tell you it just always got so corrupted and crowded. I'm sorry you had to find out the way you did." Kaylee explains.

"And there is no choosing sides. You're my friend and so is Kaylee. I refuse to choose between you or any of you." Bree tells me.

"Okay great! That's what I was hoping would happen." We giggle. "It's okay, I'm glad we had this talk." I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding.

"Okay! Well I have some stuff to do, but you can stay if you'd like." Bree smiles.

"Oh, no! It's okay. I'll be back later probably but I have to run to my parents house really quick." I explain and stand up.

We walk back inside and give hugs before I leave. They say good bye and offer smiles and I feel a weight lifted from my shoulders. I truly am glad my mother and I talked about this. I'm also glad that Kaylee and Bree understand and listened to what I had to say.

"How'd it go?" Tony asks when I get in the car.

"Great." I smile and give him a kiss. He bites my lip and pulls away before driving off.

I feel so much better about all of this now. I'm glad we got our problems solved and everything is going great again. I have the perfect boyfriend, along with perfect friends, and a perfect family. And I wouldn't have it any other way.

Kaylee's POV

Ashton and I seem off lately. I don't know, we just don't spend a lot of alone time together anymore. Either he's gone when everyone else is too, or I am, and when ever we're together, someone else is with us too. We have talked about getting a place of our own after we get back from Australia, but both of us agreed to save money to get somewhere nice. Especially since this trip is going to be expensive as fuck.

I still haven't decided how I feel about it. Sometimes I'm excited, but only when Ashton is around and his eyes light up at the most random times over the stupidest things, but it's so cute. And whenever he's not around I feel nervous and scared, like a little cat when a dog is near. I haven't got the chance to talk to Bree about it either. So I'm basically keeping it all in like I used to and I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. I don't think its good, considering the fact that I feel the exact way I used to and that was a bad situation.

I've also been thinking about my dad a lot. I find myself constantly debating about whether or not to go see him. This doesn't mean I'm ready to forgive him, cause I'm not whatsoever ready. But I do kind of want to see if we can build a small stable relationship. I think I should talk to Ashton about this later or at least try to resolve it in my own brain. But I don't think my own input will help me out much.

"Babe, you okay?" Ashton asks seeing the small frown that has found it's way onto my lips.

"Well. I don't know. I don't feel okay. But there's no real reason to feel like this." I say. I've been a lot more open to just expalining things to him, since he gets it out of me one way or another anyways.

"Wanna talk about it?" He asks.

"Uhm. I don't know." I look out the window.

"Hey." He pulls over. "Talk to me love." He guides my face towards his.

"You should probably continue driving. We're going to be late." I break contact and fiddle my hands. We're currently on our way to have dinner with Ashton's mother, and his step-father.

"I'm not going anywhere until you tell me what has got you so lost." He speaks deeply and sternly.

"I was thinking about going to see my dad, and I wanted to know what you thought about it." I look at him. This isn't really what I wanted to tell him, but I'm not emotionally ready to discuss the other things I need to talk to him about. He looks at me blankly before continuing to drive. I keep looking at him trying to point out any sign of what he's thinking about on his face. It's unreadable, but I can tell he's debating two sides of this, just like I've been doing for the past few days.

"Are you sure you're ready for that?" He asks, fixing his eyes on the road and squinting.

"I don't know. That's why I asked. I feel this sudden need to make a difference in our relationship ever since I changed things about myself in order to be good enough for you and for our friends." I explain.

"Kaylee that doesn't mean you should. He treated you so badly and then wants a relationship with you becasue you show up on tv kicking ass?" He gets a little angry.

"Well I'm no different. I treated everyone badly and I got the chance to change. What if he can too?" I defend. I don't really know why though.

"Yeah but you didn't lose contact with any of them or me for more than a few days. He ignored you for years. He walked out on you. You tried to stay apart of everyone's life. That's the difference." He grips the steering wheel tighter and I just sigh and look out the window.

I can't decide if he's right or not. He is when he says that I didn't shut them out for nearly as long as my father shut me out, but does that really mean he doesn't deserve the chance to improve, or at least show some sign of thoughtfulness. I do agree that my father showing up out of no where when I got to tv is low and harsh, and that he needs to know his boudaries. I didn't shut people out completely, but I hid behind my anger for so long and pushed everyone away. Is it really fair to reject my father's chance to be apart of my life?