Ok so these past days haven't been going so well, I been pulling my hair out majorly. My bald spots are even worse now, and I feel like crap.
Today my family and I went to the movies inside the local shopping centre. I saw some people from my school there and I automatically left uncomfortable. I kinda put my uneasiness aside, and we continued to have lunch in the food court before the movie started. After lunch we headed to the movies and the film was really good. When we left the movies my mum said we had to do some things in the shop before we leave. At this point I really wanted to go home, I was getting more and more anxious. People were everywhere, and I was freaking out. I know this sounds crazy but it felt like they were all talking about my hair, I decoded the numerous murmurs within the shopping centre and thought they were all commenting on my lack of hair. I felt as though hundreds of eyes were staring at me as I walked about. I then felt sick, I wanted to go home so badly. However, there was one more thing we had to do before we left and that was my brothers hair appointment. We walked down to the hairdressers and booked him in for an appointment which was 30 minutes away. My dad then told me that I should get my hair cut and make my hair look neat, possibly cut it all down again so it's the same length. It was like he answered the question I was trembling about this whole time, the fact that my hair looks like crap and it's best if I just get rid of it. I pleaded my dad to take me home but he refused. To wait out the 30 minutes we sat in a coffee shop. I didn't speak to anyone, even if they spoke to me I wouldn't respond. My dad told me I was behaving like a spoiled brat and that I was being rude for not responding. I knew I was behaving badly but I didn't want to talk, I wanted to go back to my room where no one can look at me.
Eventually I got home and I went straight to my room. I honestly don't know what to do with myself.
A/N: Usually, to avoid getting stressed out about people noticing my bald spots I wear a beanie. But on this occasion my parents told me not to bring it because it's a very hot day and I look ridiculous.
