The changed [BoyxBoy]

#CHAPTER 16

I hadn't gone back to school after that. I was out for a month. And still counting. I didn't want to go back in there and look at Isaac all day long. I stayed with my parents - well my parents moved back in temporarily - and they didn't seem to mind. "Nate. Stop doing those weights of yours." My mother groaned. I smiled and put the heavy weights down. "Gotta keep my body in shape, mum." I joked. "You're even more built up than before. You need to stop." I smiled. "Maybe another time." I said before lifting the weights again. She shook her head in disbelief. "Well hurry up and finish. Movie's starting in a few minutes." She said walking away. I sighed and took a deep breath. I need to occupy myself every single minute of every single day. I can't let Isaac come to my mind once. Gosh. I miss his smell. And his sweet pulpous lips. And his small shy voice and small body. I miss his smile and his giggle. Or when he's suppose to be angry but can't help but smile at me. I miss his touch and the way his brows furrow or the way he sticks his tongue out. I miss him so much, I thought. I wiped the tear threatening to come out before getting up. I showered quickly before walking down. "You are bang on time." My mother grinned at me. Everyone was out partying so I stayed with my parents. "Best party ever." I said sitting down onto the couch. And I was being honest. Nothing better than a good film with your parents. "And apparently the movie is really good." She said sitting down next to me. My father joined soon after. "What's it called?" He asked. "The book thief." I said smiling. He smiled back and nodded. It was a good film, or could have been if it hadn't been interrupted by my brother yelling whatever he yelled, while running into the living room. "Shut up, Andre!" I yelled back, pushing him away to watch the film. "Listen to me!" He exclaimed. I groaned and pushed him away again. "Come on!" I ignored him. "Isaac's in trouble!" He yelled. I looked up at him frowning but then remembered my brother could be lying just to get my attention. "Not working." I said putting the volume up. "It's not a lie for goodness sake." He said pulling someone in. I looked up to see Logan, carrying an unconscious Isaac in his arms. I jumped onto my feet and looked at him. "What happened?" I asked looking at Isaac. "We don't know. Something to do with his father beating him up." He said. I groaned and caressed his cheek. "Take him to my room and look after his bruises. Make sure to not wake him up." I said walking back to the settee. "Aren't you gonna help us?" Andre asked, shocked. "He's scare of me. I'd be violating his privacy and his wishes. He wished to not ever see me again. I'll honor his wish no matter how painful it is." I said, looking down. He huffed but didn't say anything as they left. We finished the movie and it was actually a really good one too. Brilliant actually.

"Why don't you call everyone for dinner." My father proposed. Because yes, he cooked and he was damn good at it. I smiled and nodded. "Dinner time!" I yelled from down the stairs. Everyone came stumbling down making me laugh. My mind drifted to Isaac for a bit before refocusing on going to the table. I sat down and we ate in silence. We were eating duck. It was really nice. I always loved the way he made his duck. We all took some twice, because we all are greedy bastards. "So where's Cleo?" I asked wondering. "Home probably. When we asked him why she didn't help him, he said she couldn't." I nodded sighing. "His father is a homophobe. I just thought he'd accept him after a while. I mean, we're talking about Elijah here." I said looking up at them. "Crazy how you don't actually know people." Logan mumbled. "Talk about it." I whispered getting up. I took a tray out of the cupboard beofr putting a plate of food in it with cutlery and a glad of water. "I'll be right back." I told them before walking to my room, on the third (and top) floor. I opened the door slightly to see he was still sleeping. Thank God for that. I put the tray down carefully on the side. He looks so peaceful. And yet, bruises are forming on his face. I wanted to comfort him. Tell him everything was going to be alright. Tell him I loved him and that I would take care of him. I wanted to hold him tightly my arms, comforting him and whispering sweet words into his ear. I wanted to- I looked at him wide eyed as he whined. He's waking up. Shit. Shit. My eyes widened and I heard him release a deep breath meaning he was still sleeping. I sighed in relief, kneeling down next to him on the floor. "I didn't mean to scare you." I whispered, knowing he wasn't going to hear me. "I didn't mean to tell you everything like that. I know I killed them, but they would have killed all of us without a second thought. Please forgive me." I stopped and wiped the tear away. "I promised myself I woudlnt cry over someone again and here I am crying over you." I joked. I sighed deeply and looked at the door. "I love you." I whispered, pecking his forehead before walking away when I heard some shuffling. Shit. I looked around in fear before getting into my cupboard. Oh gosh. I pushed myself to the back before I stopped breathing as I heard the cupboard door opening. I covered my mouth, and stayed still as he went through my clothes. He probably wanted to take a shower. I cursed under my breath as I felt him touch my arm. Shit. Shit. Shit. He gasped and backed away, glaring at me. I came out slowly looking down. "I just came to give you your dinner." I said, avoiding all I contact. "I thought I was dreaming." He whispered, frowning. "Nightmare was it?" I asked, not wanting him to answer because I know he'd nod. But he just looked down. I walked away and ran downstairs before crashing onto the couch. Andre frowned at me. "He had a nightmare with me in it." I bursted out. "Oh." He simply said. "I'm leaving. I can't be here with him." I whispered. "Honey." My mum whined. I shrugged. "Sorry. I honestly thought I wasn't ever gonna cry over someone again." I chuckled, choking. "I'd give up my wolf if it meant being with him." I whispered, looking at Andre. "Does that sound bad? Awful perhaps?" I asked. "Awful for your wolf. But it's the sweetest thing you've ever said." I snorted when I heard something fall behind me. I turned around to see Isaac staring at me. "See you later guys." I whispered walking passed him. I couldn't help but stop when I was next to him. I inhaled deeply, feeling my heart tare apart. I continued walking before driving off with my car. I ended up stopping by Elijah's worshop. He was talking to a client and I couldn't help but storm towards him before flunging my fist right at him. He stumbled backwards before groaning at me. His client frowned and backed away slightly. "How dare you hit your own son?!" I yelled at him. "You know what he is! It's wrong!" he defended. "He's gay. It's not wrong. It's human." I said, glaring daggers at him. He laughed. I frowned at him. "Is that what he said?" I rolled my eyes. "It's what I know, dumbass. And if you can't accept him then I can't work with you, because he's my boyfriend." I said. "And he hasn't told you!" He said bursting into laughter. I rolled my eyes. "Isaac isn't who he really is, Nate!" I shook my head, not understand what he meant. "Or should I say, Isaya." He deadpanned. "How do..." I frowned. Isaac. Isaya. He's a... Was a girl. Oh my gosh. He's Isaya. He's... Always been my mate. Oh my gosh. I looked at him to feel him punch me in the face. I growled and punched him in the face before starting to hit him. I stopped when he fell. "It doesn't give you the right to hit him." I said through gritted teeth before getting back to the car. I drove off as fast as I could, missing red lights and stop signs before arriving to the house, making a semi circle with the car when I held onto the break due to the speed. Some were staring wide eyed but I didn't care right now. I didn't even know how to react. I just ran into the house, yelling my brother's name. "Andre!" I looked downstairs but he wasn't there. I ran up two flights of stares before running into his room. "Andre!" I yelled staring at him. He frowned looking at me. "I found her." I breathed out. Am I suppose to be happy? Sad? "Isaya?" He asked grinning. I nodded. "This is great. Brilliant!" He exclaimed. I shook my head wide eyed. "It's awful." I said sitting onto his bed. "Why? Because of Isaac?" He asked. I laughed. Why am I laughing? "Because Isaac is Isaya." I said frowning deeply. "That's why his father beat him up. That's why he looked so familiar. Hell, that's why my wolf thought he was my mate. Because he is." I whined closing my eyes. "He's a freaking she. Or was. I don't know. Andre. Isaac is Isaya. I've been talking about Isaya to him. Oh my gosh. How didn't I recognise him? Her. him." I whined opening my eyes. Andre smiled sadly, but he looked shocked. "So basically, he's a girl and a boy?" He asked. I shrugged. "A guy probably. I don't know." I groaned. "This is so messed up. Where is he now?" I asked getting up. "In your room probably." He shrugged. I sighed and walked out of his room to see Isaac, struggling to put his coat on. He looked like he was in a hurry. "How did he find out?" I asked, softly. He turned around wide eyed. "It's n..none of your b..business." He stuttered. I nodded. But it was. He was my mate. She was my mate. I frowned. "Andre will drive you back home." I paused. "Tell your father if he ever touches you again, I'll finish what I started. And no one will ever know." I added. A nice threat should do. He frowned deeply. "Wh..what?" He stammered. I rolled my eyes. I love you, I thought but decided to not say it. "It'd say you haven't changed, but that's not true." I chuckled but choked afterwards. "Isaya, your old self was more confident and wasn't so afraid of something. But Isaac, you. You became insecure and fragile. Almost like you were hurt so much that you weren't able to fix properly." I paused looking into his eyes. "You became afraid of people like me. Isaya would have been amazed, she always said she wanted to be a vampire." I said smiling at the thought. "You became afraid of who I am. Of the wolf I was born with." I tried not to cry, but I couldn't hold the tear to fall anymore. "Or maybe I made you afraid of me. I made you afraid of us and I deeply regret it. Deeply. But I needed to protect you, Isaac or Isaya, whoever you are. I needed to protect you because..." I wiped the tears away. "You know why. I couldn't let you die. I couldn't let my family die. We've been through this before, you haven't. I just need you to know that I regret ever making you watch what happened. I regret ever making you live it and I regret it so much for making you scared of me." I walked forward a bit but he backed away. I sighed. "Live a good life, and I hope you find what makes you happy in life. Because I had." I said before walking back into Andre's room. "Take him back home." I told him. He nodded, frowning at me. "He's scared of you but not of me?" He asked all of a sudden. I sighed. "He didn't see you kill people, Andre. Even though they were going to kill me if I hadn't. Even though I almost did get killed." I closed my eyes and dropped on the bed. He walked away soon after. I took a deep shaky breath as I heard the car drive away. I feel worst. I told a lot about Isaya to Isaac. And he never ever thought of telling me who he really was. Who he once was at least. He left me with it. No wonder he knew my full name. Thinking, I changed it after she left me. I changed everything. I did weights and sports everyday after she disappeared, wanting to prove to her that I could be good enough for her. But I wasn't. And I still aren't. Isaac thought he could keep it a secret, away from me. Too bad his father found out. It would have saved me the feeling of betrayal.