his name is peter raul - Shawn Mendes

SM - HE

1 year later

"Heey bitch" I walk in to Leila's apartment "Hanna! Stefan can hear you!"

"Hey ugly.. better?" I laugh trowing my keys on her kitching table.

I greet boogie, Leila took care of her today.

"So Ian texted me"  she starts

"Don't tell me your talking about Ian the best friend of the name that we don't say out loud"

"Yeah If you like to call him that" She jokes

"You know that song from that nameless guy Ruin?"

"Why?"
"Ian says it's about you"
"Ian can suck his ass"

"Hanna! stefan can still hear you!" She says "ok, ian isn't such a nice guy"

"I'm going home before I ruin Stefan's further" i laugh

I said goodbye and took Boogie back home. I was seriously debating myself.

Should I list- No omg Hanna- but what if- No no no- but pleAsew- awh your so cute BUT NO.

"Sam what do you think should I listen to it?" I ask over the phone after telling him the story. "It's bin a year you can survive a song"

I couldn't even said goodbye or I already was playing the song.

Do ya... do you think about me?
And do ya... do you feel the same way? Yeah
And do ya... do you remember how we felt?
'Cause I do. So listen to me, baby.

And I'm not tryna ruin your happiness,
But darling, don't you know that I'm the only one for ya?
And I'm not tryna ruin your happiness, baby,

I stopped it right there.

"And how do you feel?" I hear Sam "I feel nothing" i lie "good see your a strong independent woman" "yes.."

Why does he think he has the wright to sing that. Like bitch you say you dont want to ruin my happiness but thats what your doing right now. Peter.

-next day-

Okay that song was bad timing. I look at the date.

When we first met.

How is it a year ago and I still didn't move on I hate my self.

I need to do something. Make my self think of something else.

I grab boogies lease and start walking to the park.

I trow his ball over a big field, i hear a guitar and my eyes shot open

"BOOGIE SHIT NO" I run after him.
When it all hit me.

No that isn't shawn. Of course not.

Or peter.. or whatever no.
No stop it hanna. He ruined my happiness remember
Good use of lyrics hanna.
Thanks.
I hate myself lol.

I hide behind a tree and look at the back of guy petting my dog

"Boogie?"

I KNOW THAT VOICE.

No your just getting crazy. You should sign yourself up for a metal hospital.

Yes maybe thats acutely a really good idea.

I take a deep breath and walk over to my dog.

"Boogie come on let that guy alone" I say

The guy looks behind him. Right in my eye.

"Oh shit..." i mumble. Slapping my own forehead

Peter Raul god dammit why.

Boogie was happy to see him. I should adopt a other dog... just kidding. But he isn't going to get his favourite candy.

"Hey.." shawn says awkwardly.

"Hey.. oh look the time I have to go!" I walk over to boogie and out him back on his leash.

"Wait please no Hanna" He puts his guitar down grabbing my arm before I could walk away.

"Shawn i'm not taking any kind of excuse. Why would you come here on this day. Play never be alone on this day. On this fucking bench. Don't you have a other bench to sing on.. or even a other country what about the north pole heard it was really nice there. Kay bye"

"Why did you came here on this day? Let boogie free on this day? Trow the ball this way?"

"Touché mendes, but I live her and I'm just walking my dog in the local park so don't try to sass me out"

I want to turn around, he pulls me back and smashed his lips on mine.

First my eyes shot open, but then I feel his warm hand on my cheek. I relax and close my eyes.

Again.
PETER GODDAMMIT WHY.

But...
I missed this so much

Omg Hanna your life is so cliche.