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Political Party Pooper

It's incredibly depressing to see how disrespectful Liberals and Conservatives are to each other. (Not all Democrats and Republicans are, but it's a number large enough to the point where it's impossible to avoid seeing.) Rather than speak their argument respectfully and based solely on logic alone, it's more of a sick competition to see how much one can belittle the other while still looking like the victim. It's like a "roast competition" except rather than immature middle-schoolers insulting one another, it's grown adults. Then again, with such strong opinions shoved everywhere in the media, it's no wonder little kids are also getting involved. It's just so rare, nowadays, to actually see a well-delivered statement rather than a viewpoint based on nothing but "if you don't agree, you clearly are stupid and should go back to kindergarten." 

Each person sees what they believe as the truth, because why would anyone willingly believe in a lie? As a result, each person honestly believes that they are completely right, regardless of what others may think. I'm no exception and I recognize this as having both positive and negative effects. This is quite obviously negative because it has the potential to block the ability for people to learn different perspectives and thus form new conclusions after examining all sides. It is positive, however, because without this sense, a person tends to have no solid opinion, is easily swayed, and ends up with resulting insecurities. 

I have a mix of both of these, personally, because I have a natural yet overwhelming compulsion to want to agree with someone over something they strongly believe in no matter what they say or at least find some common ground so that they don't hate me. It is my own fault for doing this to myself, yet it feels like I'm constantly hammering myself to fit into every single person's perception of their standards of what they deem a good person. Feeling infinite-faced, it's hard to even identify my actual opinion and standpoint on things because I can honestly see why most people believe in and do the things they do. I claim I base my thoughts primarily on logic, but then they also tend to be just as emotion-fueled as whoever I may be speaking in disagreement with; if not, more. 

The result of the severity of people's words against their opposing political parties can impact outside individuals more than they think. People become fearful to speak out against the media and the majority's common beliefs out of fear of rejection. Who wants to say "Actually, that is not necessarily true because [ supported opinion ]" when they know that whoever they speak it to is likely to sling back stinging insults right back at them? One can speak out against oppression but be unintentionally oppressing someone at the same time for an ironic example.

I target politics because that's the majority of what I'm seeing, but it's also anything that's perception-based, which is just about everything. It's just usually arguing over different favored foods is less important to people than arguing over which political action an entire nation should decide to do. Different people yell out, "Can't you just see the truth?" Yet the truth is no longer a tangible thing. Everyone has different experiences and perspectives and has seen different sides to the story. In one place, it is commonplace to insult and belittle one [ race, group, political party, gender, or anything else relevant ], and in another, it is commonplace to insult and belittle the opposite. Both are sick of feeling like victims and want to take action against the other, but as a result, just restart the entire cycle by unintentionally shoving their opposition towards innocent bystanders who just happen to fit their standards of the people who cause bad things in life. 

It's understandable why people are so rude to each other. When you see the truth, you want to help others see the truth. You simply cannot understand why anyone would directly say the opposite of the truth. So you talk down to them. How could someone just not see the truth? What kick do they get out of polluting the world with their nonsense? But little do you know that the same person is having the exact same thoughts as you. 

In the end, to be honest, one's "truth" lies on their own experiences. And if you haven't been through the experience yourself, you believe whomever you have the strongest alliance with or with whomever has had the history of lying the least. And that, too, is impacted by the experiences you have, as your perception of someone is affected by whatever impression they left on you.

Despite believing everything I just wrote, I still cannot say that what I truly believe is not absolutely true because I have had experiences that prove otherwise. I can only hope that someday, I gain the skills and insight to be able to accurately show it to others. But just like everyone else, I still am learning and will always be full of flaws, imperfections, stupidities, and sins. That doesn't decrease my value nor anyone else's, however.

I pray I will be able to overcome these insecurities and fears of what others think of me. It's just the thought of losing someone or making someone feel bad absolutely haunts me. Someday, I will overcome. But until that day comes, I suppose I will just keep living, keep learning, and most importantly, keep growing. I don't know everything and even this text I just now wrote could very well be completely untrue.

Thanks for reading my 5 AM ramble. I appreci8, m8. U gud, u loyal. Be blessed in all that you do.

I think I should seriously consider downsizing, if not eliminating, my nonacademic internet usage.