Tangled Love

Chapter Forty-One: Apologies, Trust, Betrayal

A/N:

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--Kiara--

I swallowed the lump formed at the back of my throat as I match the stare of the guy in front of me. I couldn't help but let my eyes travel from his head to his toe and back up.

His muscled body has improved and it feels kind of intimidating. He actually perfected the ruthless businessman image I have in mind whenever I look at my Dad who happens to be the first on that department.

His hair is shorter and brushed up, he looks matured than what I can remember, he has grown himself a lot of facial hair leaving a messy look on him but nonetheless he still got that silver grey eyes that I've come to enjoy staring at. It's just weird that those same eyes are somewhat different too. Its usual glow isn't there anymore and is replaced by what I can see is a dull grey eyes staring back at me instead.

I've always dreamed of this day coming. Me standing face to face with this man, staring at each other like breaking from it would be a sin but as it is happening now makes me regret even dreaming about it.

The crowd is loud but I just can't hear anything. My heart is pounding like crazy while my lungs seems to forget how to function properly right now now that he's in front of me. My hands and knees are beginning to tremble along with the prickling sensation I feel on my eyes.

I open my mouth and close it again like a fish in an aquarium. I want to lash at him and at the same time I want to throw myself to him but my body is not cooperative enough to do either of my options. Instead I just stood there, staring at him who has a mirrored expression from mine.

"Kia--"

"Hey! Look who decided to show up after a year!" I bet Andrew was about to say something when Nathan cut him off and envelope him into a tight man-hug.

I blinked stupidly several times before looking around us. The crowd was gone and there are only a few people left who are now heading to the direction of the gymnasium's exits. It's only me, Piwie, Nathan, Stacy and Andrew whose left.

I watched as Andrew embraced everyone in the room exchanging smiles with them like he hasn't disappeared for a year. I twitched my lips sidewards disapprovingly when his sight landed to mine. My friends are looking at us uncomfortably and silence filled the air around us.

"Kiara..." He said softly but still it makes me jolt. I haven't heard his voice for too long. I realize how I already forgot how he sounds like. Strange.

"Simons." I blinked the pain away as I say his last name though I never called him that before.

Saying his first name is so hard for me right now. I'm afraid that I might breakdown right here, right now, once I say it out loud and that's the last thing I want to do in front of him. I can't let him see me weak. I can't let my guard down. Not anymore.

Yes, I'm still not over him. I'm still on that same deep shit he has left me. I'm still the old Kiara who wants answers and who wants to be held by him and only him. But I just can't be that desperate.