Divergent High

Chapter 27

Tris pov

"Do you think it's my fault Emma died" I say as me and Tobias lay on our bed in the dark, letting the night sky reflect into our room.

We're naked, laying close together, only being covered by a blanket.

We just had sex. Sad, miserable sex. It was good sex but sad sex. We've had better sex before. Why did we have sex? I don't know we just did.

"Don't ever say it's your fault. What happened to Emma was not your fault" He says running his fingers threw my hair.

"What if it was" I say

"Hey look at me" he says so I do

"This wasn't your fault. This was no ones fault. It just happened and there was nothing we could've done" he says and I sigh laying my head in his chest.
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It's been two days already without Emma. I sit in bed and don't talk much. Tobias and I got in an argument a while ago so he isn't talking to me.

He didn't like how I was giving everyone attitude. I'm upset, I'm heartbroken. My baby just died, he should just let me deal with it how ever I want to deal with it.

My mom is here with Evelyn checking in on us and watching Logan.

Tobias comes into the room and is followed by our friends.

"They wanted to come see how your doing" he tells me, annoyed with me.

"I'm fine. I don't need checking up on" I say to him angrily.

"Tris be nice. You can give me attitude all you want but don't take it out on everyone else" he says

I look at my friends and they hold balloons, flowers, trays of food, etc. I start to feel overwhelmed and I can't deal with the stress and sadness anymore.

I feel sick so I run to the bathroom in our room and close the door behind me. I lift up the toilet seat and puke. I don't know why I puked. I guess all the overwhelmed feelings just conquered my body and made me sick.

Don't worry, if your thinking I'm pregnant. I'm not.

I rinse my mouth and brush my teeth. I open the bathroom door and see my friends and Tobias waiting for me.

They watch me as I sit in bed.

"Thanks for asking if I was okay. Now I really know you don't care about me anymore" I say to Tobias as I wrapped myself with a blanket.

"I do care about you. I'm just annoyed with you right now" he says

"Well get over it because I'm not doing anything wrong. I'm trying to deal with the death of our child the best that I can" I say

"Well try harder because giving attitude to people isn't going to fix anything. Emma is still going to be dead" he says

"Stop yelling at me like I'm a child" I say

"Well you certainly are acting like one" he says

"Your driving me insane, your not even taking into consideration about how I feel about all of this. I just lost a baby. I think it's okay if I lash out a little" I say

"We just lost a baby. We." He says

"Well your not making it seem like a 'we' type of thing because you won't even try to deal with this situation with me. I'm doing this all alone" I say

"Then what was last night?" He ask me

"It was sex. Terrible sex actually, we've had better sex before" I say and shuanna covers her son's ears.

"So your saying the sex was terrible. I knew we shouldn't have did that last night because nothing good was going to come out of it" he says

"Okay we're going to go wait somewhere else where you two are not screaming at each other and talking about your sex life" Christina says

"Can you just give us a minute" I tell our friends and they nod.

Zeke was the last one out so on his way out he closes the door.

Tobias sits at the edge of the bed and I stay where I'm at in the middle.

"I'm sorry" we say at the same time.

"You go" I tell him

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to go that far. I know your hurting..." he says but I interrupt him.

"Don't apologize it was all my fault. I was being such a bitch, I know and I'm sorry. I'm just trying to deal with The Whole Emma thing" I say

"Don't deal with it alone then. I'm here. We can get threw this together" he says

"And I really am sorry. I should have never argued with you" he adds

"Me too" I say

He holds my check and I lean in and kiss him.

He pulls away and laughs.

"Was the sex really terrible" he asks

"It wasn't bad but we've had better times" I say laughing with him.

"Ugh okay" he says and kisses me.

Hope you enjoyed this chapter. I'll update soon.