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Dear notes

I don't keep a diary. I wish I would've kept one since I was little. It'd be nice to go back and relive everything through my words at the moment it happened. Instead I'll type my feelings up in my notes app and delete them afterwards. I still can't seem to grasp what Christen said to me. Just because her and Vero have been together for a long time doesn't mean she should stay with her. This is all very confusing. To me this is middle school drama and now that we're in high school relationship drama should be easier. Like if you date someone because you love them, why waste their time.. whatever Christen's idea of her and Vero's relationship I hope she doesn't end up hurting. If she only knew she means the fucking world to me and I could imagine the future. The two of us traveling and doing what we love together. It'd be perfect. Oh and I could take those cute off guard pictures of her, which she'd be mad about claiming she looks "ugly" in them when in reality no human could be more perfect in a world so screwed up. Gosh she's amazing. Ugh, I probably won't remember to do a journal but for now I just needed to write what I felt.