Just Baby Scars (An Ashton Irwin Fan Fiction)

Xx Chapter 24: Shush Now xX (W/ Smut)

(A/N) Thank you all for your answers to the question on the last chapter. After a 'long day of careful consideration'... I decided, Why not? I'm an author, and I suppose it ultimately is my decision. I will publish two chapters today. One including smut, and one without. This chapter, as stated in the title includes it. Please click the next one if you are not looking for any 'sexy-time' today! And if you do read this chapter, definitely read the "clean" version. It's nice to see that difference. Alrighty, enough talking! <3 you guys!
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Leander isn't nearly as small as I had hoped. The city branched out into thousands of street. And with big cities comes traffic. Ashton had made an appearance about 45 minutes ago, staring at me intently. At first I wasn't uncomfortable, but it was slowly growing to bother me.
He's trying to figure out how to break up with you without causing a scene. I decided maybe it was best not to stress over that. I looked around the room to see Luke and Calum staring at me, having a more concerned expression. Okay can't look there either.
I heard mumbling and whining coming from the sleeping quarters. Everyone watched the door as it opened and revealing a lazy-eyed Michael. He rubbed his eyes, honestly making him look like a little kid.
"Good morning, Mikey," He frowned, still asleep at heart and threw himself over-dramatically on the couch. "I'm tired." Everyone stared at Michael. "Seriously?" Luke asked bewildered. I'd have to agree with Luke, he could possibly be tired. "You do realize you slept 16 hours right?" Michael lazily looked at me. "That's 8 hour's too short."
Calum scoffed at looked out the traffic that seemed endless outside the bus. "How long have we been in a jam?" Michael, barely, put together a coherent sentence, gazing outside. "About 4 hours." Everyone turned towards me. "How long have you been up?"
I shrugged, "You never slept?" I heard Ashton's breath hitch. "Like at all?" I nodded, starting to zone out of this conversation. Calum leaned into my view. I saw his mouth moving, but the words weren't forming in my head.
I watched him closely, trying to understand him. Suddenly, exhaustion hit me hard. I struggled to keep my eyes open. Now I could see Michael's concerned expression from the couch. He was speaking, but my gaze trailed from him to the blurry cars outside.
A buzzing sound slowly grew louder and louder in my ear. It was almost unbearable. I placed a hand on the side of my head, hoping that would stop it. I felt movement around me, but my eyes wouldn't travel to see what it was. My vision slowly faded into blackness and finally, silence fill my head.
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"She's still not awake." I heard Michael familiarly worried voice. Someone was pacing, probably Luke. "We can't get her to a hospital. Oh my go-, What if she's dying! Is she dead?" Calum's concern caught me off guard.
"Look Ashton, Michael. Calum and I need to tell you something." I felt the hand on my arm leave, and a cold air filled the vacancy. I tried to open my eyes, but I didn't have the strength. "See, the reason Ivy asked to borrw-."
Suddenly, the strength I didn't have appeared. I opened my eyes and quickly sat up. The boys heads all snapped towards me. Ashton knelt down beside me, grabbing my hand. The unexpected energy I had just gain faded as quick as it came. Ashton wrapped an arm around me, almost as if he sensed my sudden weakness.
"Ivy, what the fuck happened." Michael was wide awake now, I could see worry lines across his face. I looked at him as I tried to come up with an answer. I fumbled with words that I didn't have. "Honestly Mikey, I don't know." His expression softened as he realized I had the same questions that he did.
"Ivy..." Calum looked at me, I could tell he wanted to ask something he knew was going to make me uncomfortable. "Have you," He clear his throat, nervously messing with his hair. "Have you eaten?" I felt everyone's eyes look towards my stomach.
He couldn't possibly know. You stupid bitch, you can't keep anything a secret. He doesn't know. You're pathetic,dragging them into your life over and over again. He. Doesn't. Know.
I could feel the suspicion pouring off of the boys, encouraged by my silence. "I've been eating guys, for sure." Michael took a quick glance at my torso, and then I watched as his eyes took in the sight of my long sleeves. Shit.
"Actually, you know what," I frantically tried to distract him. "I think I didn't eat yesterday. Just busy." Ashton seemed to loosen up, almost relieved at the fact that I had an explanation for them. Michael still looked at my arms. Subconsciously I crossed my arms in a defensive manner.
He torn his eyes away from me, pain edged into his face. I slowly turned my attention outside. The bus was parked in front of a lavish hotel. "Why are we at a hotel?" I desperately pleaded to myself that they would get distracted by something , anything that wasn't me.
Calum and Michael looked out the window, almost simultaneously, and Luke was already out the door by the end of my question. Michael and Calum followed leaving Ashton and I behind. I didn't move.
I was too scared that if I did, Ashton would see how weak I really was. Just get the fuck up, stop being such a little bitch. Ashton stood up taking me with him, thank god. He held his arms tightly around my waist, turning me to face him.
"You have no idea how worried I was," I nodded, mumbling a quiet 'sorry.' He shook his head pulling me into a tight and reassuring hug. "Just don't ever put me in a situation like that again. Don't put off eating for working. Okay?" I looked up at him a forced a smile.
He smiled back and picked me up bridal style, carrying me out of the bus. You're already crushing him. Normally this would bother me more than it is right now, but the fact that it was either this or the possibility of my legs giving out, I'd take this.
He followed behind Luke and Calum walked beside him. Jokes and laughter flowing between them. Michael was far ahead from us, nose buried into his phone. Several of the staff that manage the public affairs of the boys were in the hallway as well, discussing security and protocol. I refocused on Ashton and his happiness.
One day, you're going to take all of the happiness out of him. I didn't want to believe that. But part of me knew that. Deep down, I am no good for Ashton, and it's just a matter of time before he realizes it.
He looked down, his captivating hazel eyes lighting up my soul once again. Michael place a key card in Ashton mouth and leaned in, whispering something to him. Honestly, I didn't care to hear. I just cared that I was with Ash, here and now. Michael handed Luke and Calum each a card as well. Everyone got a room? What about me? Oh wait...
Ashton looked down at me, shaking his head slightly to tell me to grab his the card. I took it out of his mouth and stuck the card into the door when Ashton leaned me down. His pushed the door open and walked into the room, kicking it closed behind him.
He walked to the bed and laid me in it. Next thing I knew, Ashton's warmth dissipated, the still dark room seeming to swallow him. I tried to see through the dark, but i shouldn't find him. Suddenly, a warm hand made contact with my face and the dim light of the small lamp near the bed turned on revealing my beloveds face. He kissed me, I hint of force this time. Ashton's right hand gripped my left arm, pinning me down. This Ashton was different, he was, confident. And there's no denying that I liked it.
Ashton took more of an authoritative position this time. He held himself on top of me. Now his hand move my arm's above my head, leaving soft kisses across my skin. Every touch felt like something new. It was exciting yet frightening at the same time.
He released me only long enough to remove his shirt. The sight caught me off guard every time. He was tone, but not so much the it was over done. He noticed my eyes wondering down his body and I smirk came to his face. "You know, they say curiosity killed the cat." I bit the inside of my cheek, tearing my eyes away. He leaned in close, his breath light on my ear. "Just be glad you're my kitten" His left hand trailed down to the bottom of my shirt.
I hesitated for only a second, he pulled away from our kiss. "Are you not ready?" His question was sincere, I could tell he didn't want to push me into something I didn't want. I pulled his face close, kissing his lips as passionately as I could. I didn't pull away for a second, not wanting this moment to end. He mumbling something into the kiss causing me to giggle.
I arched my back, sliding the off, revealing a maroon laced bra. His breath hitched, slowly exhaling through his teeth. "I'll interpret that as you're ready." I smiled, feeling his breath against my neck as he made his way to leave kisses on my newly exposed skin. His fingers moving slowly down the side of my body sent goose bumps tingling across me.
He reached the top of my shorts, running a hand across my stomach and landing on the button. I bit my lip, and tilted my head back in anticipation. He groaned softly, "If you keep doing that, I don't know if I can control myself." I smiled, realizing the it's me biting my lip that get's to him.
He came back, giving me a light kiss and looked at my face. I took the opportunity to bite my lip and saw Ashton's composure break for a brief moment. He buried his face in my neck, softly sucking.
My eyes fluttered as Ashton made his way back down repeating the same action as he went. He undid my shorts, slowly sliding them down, almost as if he were teasing me. I huffed in frustration. Turns out, getting teased isn't nearly as fun as teasing someone.
He let out a small laugh, letting my shorts hit the floor. He placed a delicate kiss at the top seam of the matching panties I was wearing. He took his time in getting to where we both really wanted, taking every opportunity to kiss me.
Every kiss felt like a delay they was slowly becoming something I couldn't handle any more. "Ashton, please don't tease me." I managed to say, coming out more as begging. He smiled and placed a kiss near the start of my cleavage, running a hand behind my back and unclasping my bra.
Delicately he pulled it off me, mumbling that wasn't audible enough for me to hear. "Hm?" I managed, even though the anticipation was killing me. He nipped at the skin he just revealed causing me to jump. "I just noted to myself how incredible sexy you are right now." I playfully rolled my eyes but didn't get a chance to respond. I hand had traveled down, playing the the top of my panties.
I bit my lip, trying to control my urges. Ashton peppered kisses down my stomach, leaving hickeys ever so often. He slide his hand down, his fingers lightly rubbing my clit. His other hand, hooked the side of my panties and slid them off, tossing the near my shorts across the room.
He place made eye contact with me, just long enough to see that was still up for this. Before I knew it he slid a digit inside me, slowly moving in and out. He placed a kiss on the inside of my thigh and slid a second digit in, causing me to hold my breath. I felt him exhale against my leg, the warm air traveling up into my warmth. His pace picked up steadily as I felt my legs being cover with hickeys.
Suddenly, just when I was starting to close in, everything stopped, leaving me worked up. I could see his outline in the small amount of light still available. I heard his pants hit the floor and watched as his underwear soon followed. I felt a little smile come to my face. Ashton's presence was soon back over me, holding himself close. He gave me a long kiss, almost enough to distract me from the fact the the love of my life was naked on top of me.
"If you keep moaning as loud as you have been, you're brothers' going to find out." I tilted my head up, attempting to hide the color rushing to my cheeks from embarrassment. Ashton's lips made contact with my skin, leaving a trail of kisses until his reach my warmth. His hands gripped my thighs, pushing the apart.
He placed a kiss on my clit and flicked it with his tongue. I fought the urge to make any noise, mostly because Michael with have a conniption fit. Ashton repeatedly used his tongue to return me into the state he had left me in just moments ago. He let his hand travel up and tenderly fondle my breast. I let out a soft moan and suddenly, everything that happened just stopped.
Ash's face appeared inches away from mine, he took my hands and placed them back above my head. His now messy hair brushing the top of my forehead. "Have I told you how much I love you?" I bit the inside of my cheek, looking at the ceiling behind him. "I'm sure you have, but just remind me."
He moved my hair out of my face, placing a kiss on my forehead. His hand moved to my cheek, pulling me towards him slightly, he kissed me with so much passion I was a little taken a back.
My temporary state of shock was cut-off earlier than expected as I felt Ashton's member slide inside me. I bit my lip and I heard a groan softly rip out of Ashton's throat. I smirked mischievously at him, and wrapped an arm around his neck, keeping him close. He looked deeply into my eyes for a moment, a fire of passion burning in his.
He began thrusting, quickening his pace steadily. Ever so often a moan would slip through my lips and Ashton would attempt muffle it with a kiss. Very soon, every push into me Ashton would make became a moan and even Ashton was becoming sloppy.
He placed his head beside mine, breathing heavily as he worked to keep up the pace. His precise and focused movement became loose but none-the- less effective. As I closed my peak, I wrapped my arm around his neck, using his strength as my support.
Ash ran his hands down my legs, slowly his speed just enough so he could wrap my legs around his waist. This small change of position pushed me over the edge. Not even a minute later, I felt my body tense as I came.
Ash wasn't far behind, he quickened to a pace I didn't even realize he could go and road my high out. When his thrusts became so sloppy that he was struggling to keep quiet and continue on, I wrapped my arms tightly around his neck. I tilted my head up slightly, barely catching the edge of his earlobe between my teeth and pulled semi-forcefully.
That's all it took. An almost animal like growl ripped out of his throat, startling me just for a second. He took in a deep breath and loudly groaned a 'fuck' in my ear causing me to giggle. He came, and as soon as his high was over, he pulled out, heaving with every breath.
"I love you." I barely managed as the actuality of how tired I really was hit me. He smiled looking at me. "You're not bad Miss Clifford." I rolled my eyes at his blatant attempt to ignore my statement. "Yeah will, you're not as bad as I expected you to be." He pouted slightly, looking kind of hurt.
"Is this because I didn't say I love you back?" I looked at him just long enough to silently tell him yes, and rolled over, putting my back towards him as another insinuation to it.
I heard him sigh loudly and a large arm wrapped itself around me. "Ivy Paige Clifford, I love you so much, words don't do justice." I smiled to myself, slowly interlacing one of my hands in his. He took his other hand to pull me closer and planted a kiss on the side of my head. "I hope you sleep well princess." I felt and genuine smile appear on my face.
"I will as long as I am with you."
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