Just Baby Scars (An Ashton Irwin Fan Fiction)

Xx Chapter 30: Take it Easy Now xX

(A/N) I'm so sorry it took me so long to upset, if I'm being honest I typed this back in January but then petty drama and crap happened at school distracted me. Please don't hate me >.< I kind of like this chapter tho, it kind of give some insight to all end of the spectrum that is Ivy's behavior, and for the first time, she doesn't say something super important back to Ashton.... Broke my heart a little. 

Hope y'all like it :)) 

~Cordi

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~~IVY'S POV~~

I huffed as I threw myself against my bed. I can't believe Calum is being this way to me, let alone saying that to me.

I stared at the top of my bunk, counting all the little flaws and chips in the paint, hoping to pass the time till Ashton got back.

I pulled my phone out and scrolled throw Twitter, seeing the boy's most recent tweets.

"Missing my babyy 💕" @.Ashton5SOS

A smile crept to my face, making the situation from earlier leave my mind. I continued scrolling ignoring the hate from some of the boy's fans and from people that seemed only to be interested in being hateful.

My phone buzzed as a text message popped up on my screen.

Lucas 😷

Buddyyy. Whatcha doin'

I frowned at his text. Convenient that Luke texted right after Calum was an ass. I dismissed the messages, h

Let the door slam loudly behind me.

My vision started to glaze over as tears started building up in my eyes. I can't believe he'd say that. I can't believe he'd even thing that!

I looked in that mirror, opposite of me, and let out a loud sigh. "Look at me" I mumbled to myself, walking closer to the mirror. The girl looking back at me was truly a miser able sight. The bags under my eyes, the empty feeling my dull green eyes portrayed. Even the sunk in frame my body naturally hide. I was pathetic.

Calum didn't even have to tell you what you already knew. I took a deep breath. That voice, despite its absence recently, was almost reassuring. Nothing had magically changed. This wasn't some miracle where some guy came in and changed my life. It wasn't that easy.

I pulled my phone out, opening twitter. The reminder I was unimportant was always here on my phone. Somewhere on here there was hate for me. Those that could see the real me.

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@.IvyPCliff How long are you going to waste Ashton's time? Everyone sees the scars. Just kill yourself already.

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@.IvyPCliff I hope you hate yourself as much as every on in the #.5SOSfam hates you

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@.IvyPCliff Once you're dead, you'll be as irrelevant to 5SOS as you were when they left for tour a year ago.

I felt a tear fall from my face. As much as I wish I could tell myself I knew differently, or that they were wrong. They weren't. It's me just face the facts. There's no reason for me to pretend I'm wanted here.

You're just yet another burden Michael has to carry around. I bit the inside of m y cheek. I should just go.

I cracked open the door to the main part of the bus where Calum was. I noticed his head down on the table, and mumbling coming from him. I opened the door a little, slipping out of the opening and closing it back, thanking god for the fact that it hadn't made a noise.