It's been two days since we bumped into Nick and Samantha. Demi has been having some issues adapting to the fact that I will be leaving for a "vacation." Meanwhile Joe just sync in the fact and tells me he'll set my room up for rent until I'm back. I laughed at his source of comfort, while he earned a slap from Demi on the side, with her arguing, "we are not allowing no strangers in this house."
"I'll miss you sis," Demi says, bringing me into her arms for a hug.
"Me too," I said, embracing her into my arms, "I'll be back though."
I could feel the tears roll around the rim of my eyes. Trying in all that I can to hold back on the welding tears, it was bittersweet to say goodbye. I just met my long lost sister, it's too soon.
And I might even be selfish for leaving out of a sudden.
Joe pulls us apart with a grouchy face, "I wanna be part of this group hug."
"Come on in," Demi and I laugh as we pull Joe in.
Their home phone started ringing after a while of hugs and tears, we extracted Joe out of the hug to get it. Him giving us a slight puppy dogs pout. His facial changes from the goofy pout to a more concerned and serious expression. He took the mobile phone with him to his room.
Demi and I exchanged confused looks.
"Who would that be?" I asked Demi, looking afar to where Joe has disappeared to.
She just shrugs and tugs me by my arm, "C'mon let's shackle you outta this crazy town."
"Kicking me out already? Ouch!" I said sarcastically, "and it's city." I corrected her.
She laughs rolling her eyes as we enter my room, "whatever."
While Demi and I were in my room, we cried, laughed and gushed about the latest gossips of God-knows who Justin Timberlake was with now. Then getting back into laughing and tears.
After Demi and I went through our horrible phase of laughs and tears, we wee so exhausted we fell asleep. At least she did, I woke up in then middle of the night and looked at the computer screen in front of me, still a little bit decisive to leave or not.
But after all that's happened, I don't feel like I fit in his world. I don't wanna be a character in the drama that will end up hurt again. And before I could change my mind again, I clicked 'purchase' button on the screen and booked my flight to New Port, California.
At least I will feel safer here.
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Early next morning Joe drops me off at Nick's before he heads off to work with Demi. I thanked them before they left, then I was stuck! lost in front of the wooden brass door. Afraid of what it will look like when I open this door.
I ringed the doorbell, just until the doorknob turns, I feel my stomach churn and my heart flutter. When the brown brass door opens, it appears Nick.
Now I was speechless & just waiting to hear Samantha barge out to show off her now, happy family.
"Are you going to come in?" Nick asks me, standing there with his coffee in his hand. He was in his casual weekend-at-home attire, from head to toe he was just casual.
"Uhm, yes," I said, and walked into the flat. It didn't turn out as messy I imagined, although he did have a pile of dishes there and some left over pizza boxes on the counter. And his coffee table was piled up as well, with work documents and files spread across his couch.
"Your stuff is stil in your room, you can go clear you stuff," Nick says, catching me off guard.
I turned around to him, he was standing just by the couch, "Thanks, is Samantha here?"
"No, why would she?" he replies bluntly, than changes his tone, "Not like you want to see her."
I nodded and just walked into my room. I opened the white painted wooden door, everything was just the same like I left it. At least there weren't any baby stuff starting to pile here.
I took out my red suitcase from the closet and started packing up the rest of my belongings. Nick wandered the halls while I was packing for the past hour, it was like flipping through a memory book looking at the pictures we took.
I debated whether or not I should keep them, but just before I finished I decided to leave him one photo. It was the one I took with him on the first night he came to see my show, man was he shocked that night, it brought me to laughter even.
I closed my luggage just like closing a book with a sad ending. Nick was now sitting by the couch with his laptop on his lap and a bluetooth in his ear. When he heard me come out, I hear him ending the conference.
"I got to go, we'll talk tomorrow," Nick concludes in his call, and stands up facing me.
"Thanks for letting me pick up my stuff," I tell him, forcing a smile, "I really appreciated you letting me stay for the time being, if I owe you anything just text or call."
He was silent just looking at me, it made me feel like I was suppose to continue with a speech.
"Take care," I said turning around to the door.
"Wait, when will you be back?" he asks, I turned to him, he had his hands in his pockets as we shifts from foot to foot.
"Joe told you?" I avoided his question, he just nods though, "I don't know. Maybe a month, half a year or maybe a year?"
"Why? Because of me?" he asks like its a ridiculous idea, "Don't do that, don't leave because of me."
It was debatable here, I really can't argue with that. I know it's the truth and so does Nick. But I could already predict the ending of this scene, I will end up crying as I leave and so will Nick. And it's not the most terrific way to leave our friendship.
"Let's not do this right now Nick..." I said tiredly, because I am... tired of the drama.
"Why not?!" he practically roared, "You think it will help if you just left without no words and leaving me here without even telling you goodbye?"
I shook my head, feeling the tears come up already, "Why do you care? Because a week ago, it didn't seem like you cared if I was in alive..."
He stops screaming and just looks at me as I speak.
"I love you Nick, and you know that, Samantha knows that. But that doesn't matter, you chose her. You have a great and biggest heart for taking her knowing that it's not even your baby but I can't..." I tell him, tears streaming down my face and buffy eyes, "I don't want to make you choose but you're hurting yourself by trying to make everything better and I-I can't stop you anymore."
He was dumbfound and quiet, standing there. Few tear drops wobbles down his cheek, "Please... stay."
"Nick, chances with you is like waiting for an angel to drop from Heaven..." I cried.
"Selena I l-" Nick says but was cut off when the keys from outside turns the knob and door starts to stir open.
