Sad, scared, and abused.

chapter 24

It had been a few weeks since Kid had appeared and shown himself to Alice.

The nurse had feared that this would tear Alice apart, that it would drive her to be more insane than she already was. But Alice seemed like she was improving, like she had the will to go on and get better. Just knowing that Kid was alive apparently gave her hope. And this could have turned out good, but Alice was always trying to be free. She knew Kid was out there and tried her best to get discharged from the hospital so she could visit him. She had no idea where he was but she knew she could find him. She loved him.

The nurse was scared, because that night she could tell from just looking in his eyes that there was something terribly off about him. He looked pained, but he had a look of determination. Like he had realized that Alice could never stop loving him and he could use this to her advantage.

It was true. He could. Alice would do anything just to be with her love again. He was apparently the light of her life.

The nurse wanted to know more about Kid, so she had Alice write her true feelings about Kid on a piece of paper.

The nurse lied, and said it would help relieve stress. When really she was just curious.

It took Alice some time, but she took the pen and paper and began to write.

Kid is.. Well hes my life. Ive based everything around him for quite a while now, and Im beginning to realize that I am madly in love with him. id do anything to see him smile. And when he hugged me..For the first time in a long while I felt safe. Like no one could touch me. No one could hurt me. Not even myself. I wasn't a danger to myself anymore. When im around him all suicide thoughts rush out. Ive never told anyone that ive been suicidal. But I have. I have dreams about killing myself in the most un romantic ways. But then Kid came into my life and now I have dreams about happy things. Adventure. Surreal worlds. And I dont know about you but I think its amazing. Hes the reason I can smile and honestly say it was a real smile. Not a half assed fake smile. But a genuine one. One that makes you think of the sun and of warmth. Of a bright summer day, where your at the beach and your alone with the ones you love most. Just laughing and having an amazing time.

He makes me feel like I can accomplish anything.

Yet I feel as if I dont know him like he knows me. He knows my every flaw, my fears, my cries. He knows every mood like of mine like the back of his hand. Yet.. I call him Kid.. and I dont know anything about his back ground story and that confuses me. I think.. why am I in love with a person I know nothing about.

if he was ever sad or scared I know that I would fight and give up everything to make sure he's safe. To make sure he's smiling. and right now im worried. I have no idea where he is. I only saw him once a few weeks ago but its driving me insane to the point where my heart physically hurts and I feel as if im going to throw up.

Hes my life and I cant lose him.

After reading this the nurse realized that Alice wouldn't be stable here and had her committed to a more locked up room. no windows, and a door that was padded. In fact the walls were padded too.

Alice didnt understand. She had been getting better, She had been trying.

And now she was locked up in a room getting drugged every other hour.

Sleeping medicine, pain killers. anything they could think of.

The nurse was ashamed of herself for doing this but she felt as if she had to.

She needed something.. something to make Alice forget.

She wanted her to forget Kid.

Permanently.