How To Forget

Chapter Eight

Chapter Eight

Offered

Mommy:

Goodmorning, Kaia, I love you!

Napabuntong hininga ako pagkatapos mabasa iyon, inilapag ko ang phone ko sa lamesa at kinuha ang face towel para sa aking basang basa na buhok. Lagi nalang ako nakakatanggap ng ganitong text mula kay Mommy, she even texts me verses from bible ever since I told them the truth.

My Dad was just silent the whole time. My Momma, on the other hand, were teary-eyed and my Kuya was watching me admit that Xavier and I already broken up.... months ago.

It was so hard for the whole moment. Halos basag basag na ang boses ko noon pero pinilit ko pa rin. My Mom immediately hugged me after I said those crucial words, Dad just watched us on the other hand.

Akala ko ay magagalit si Daddy, sa akin man o kay Xavier pero hindi. Noong matutulog na sana ako ay kumatok siya sa aking kwarto at kinausap ako. He told me that he liked Xavier and he also told me he cannot hate him with just that, nang dahil nagbreak na kami.

That was all I wanted to hear.

That was everything.

Ang hindi kamuhian ng magulang ko si Xavier, maybe I just thought my family's shallow not to understand it but I'm wrong. They accepted it, they forgiven me even if I lied to them. I am so blessed, right?

Pinulot ko ang suklay at umupo sa monobloc, ang katahimikan ay sobrang nakakabingi. Napatingin ako sa kama ni Zea, I'm missing her already!

Sobrang tahimik ng buhay ko kapag wala siya, lalo na't wala rin si Ate Gelay at kaming dalawa lang ni Ate Rain ang nandito ngayon. Pero muhkang ako nga lang e, she's always out there. Umaga at gabi ko lang siya nakikita pero kapag tanghali ay wala siya, I own our dorm in that hours, I own the silence, the shallowness...

Now I remembered Zea! Pinulot ko ulit ang phone ko, I swiped the screen to unlock it. I tap iMessage to check if she had left some message to me.

Zea "Pretty Gorgeous" Feliciano: Landed! Landed! Good morning, sunshine!

Napangiti ako nang nilagyan pa niya ito ng sun emoji sa huli, kahapon siya umalis dito sa Pilipinas at saktong first day ng Midyear classes kahapon kaya hindi ko siya nahatid sa airport. Medyo nagtampo pa nga siya dahil pwede naman daw akong umabsent kahapon, how can I? Registration din kahapon!

Tiningnan ko kung anong oras niya ito sinend, 5:23.

Napatingin ako sa oras sa top right corner ng screen ng aking phone, 9:45.

I crinkled my nose and started typing my reply.

Kaia "The Saint" Fonacier: Glad you landed safely! Update your Snapchat stories for me, please?

And I pressed the send button. The names were edited by my own best friend. She's happy with it and I just let it be. Although I do not agree with what she inserted in between my name.

I'm not a saint, I sin just like normal persons do, I party and I drink hard liquors. Sobrang layo sa sinasabi ni Zea na santo.

Well compared to her, I'm better. Pero kahit ganoon siya ay namimiss ko siya ngayon, I miss her bratness and her loudness.