How To Forget

Chapter Thirty

This is the last chapter. Thank you so much for reading and bearing with me.

Love, Chancymoon

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Chapter Thirty

Time

"Anong oras?" Rafael asked. Napatingin ako sa kanya at napanguso.

Humampas ang malakas na hangin na siyang nagpasayaw sa buhok ko. Binasa ko ang aking labi habang sinisikop ang buhok ko at inilagay sa isang side. I looked up at Rafael.

I tried to smile at him but his expression didn't change, still dark and brood. His brows are furrowed and his forehead was creased like he's not happy with what's happening now. Why isn't he happy? Di ba dapat ay masaya siya para sa akin ngayon?

Nagiwas nalang ako ng tingin nang hindi siya ngumiti pabalik sa akin. Siguro ay nag away silang dalawa ni Ana kaya ganito ang kanyang mood ngayon, Rafael would always be this moody anway.

I don't know how and when exactly they got back together but I am really happy for them. Nagulat ako noong nag aya ng dinner si Rafael at kasama na niya si Ana. They admitted to me that they got back on track, still not officially together but they're taking it all slow. Ang aking pakiramdam noon ay bahagyang gumaan, seeing one of my friends happy can make the heavy feeling on my chest gets lighter.

Dahil kahit papaano, sa gitna ng mga sakit at luha ay mayroon pa ring magandang nangyayari sa buhay ko. It was like miracle rainbow in the midst of storm. It must be a reminder for me that no matter how hard, how difficult and how rough my life now, there are still rainbows and happiness that were reserved just for me.

"3 o'clock," I simply answered.

Ganon pa rin ang kanyang ekspresyon, I suddenly wanted to ask him why but I have no much time for a longer conversation with him. Kailangan ko pang magligpit ng iilang gamit. Kuya Paulo is waiting for me already. Kailangan ko nang umalis pero pinaunlakan ko muna ang kagustuhan ni Rafael na kausapin ako. I had no any plans on saying goodbye to him or Ana. Babalik din naman ako, I wouldn't be gone for too long.

"Kailan ka babalik? How about your studies, Kaia?" I can sense irritation laced through his voice, biglang sumikip ang aking dibdib.

I feel bad for not saying this to Rafael sooner. He's been with me since the start, through thick and thin, he will always be there for me. Pero heto ako ngayon, kinakain ng aking kunsensya dahil hindi ko sinabi ang pagalis ko.

"I will come back after a week, Raf. Modules and hand outs will be sent on my email by my fellow classmates on each subject. Don't worry too much, Raf..." I said with my soft and tender voice assuring him this is all okay for me.

Pakiramdam ko kasi na iniisip niya na napipilitan lamang akong umalis ng bansa, of course no!

Hindi ako napipilitan. This is my duty. This what my heart wants. Kung hindi man ako aalis ng bansa ngayon ay baka hindi ko rin kayanin.

"I'm sorry," he said, I looked at him. His expression is still the same and I saw struggling on his eyes.

"I... I was just too concerned about you, Kaia. Hindi ako nagtatampo o kung ano pa man. Masyado lang akong nagaalala sa'yo. Just please, keep safe..."

Huminga ako ng malalim at ngumiti sa kanya. He opened his arms so wide and my smile gets wider. Humakbang ako ng kakaunti at niyakap kaagad si Rafael. Napapikit ako nang maramdaman ko ang pagyakap niya rin sa akin. Uminit ang sulok ng aking mga mata.