Queendom

19. Grimoires

I have 6 days before I have to turn myself over again, I have been reading through every grimoire I could find to try to search for the spell Katiya used to keep my demon dormant for so many years. My mother has been no use, nor Thanatos. I cannot get any contact with Katiya, I'm afraid she has died, because I couldn't even locate her with magic.

My magic is very strong now, I've been practicing day and night. Sometimes Braxton comes into my office and makes me sit on the couch so he can get some sleep, he'll lay in my lap and sleep throughout the night, And sometimes I'd join him too. He's been very supportive, getting me any herbs or anything I need, bringing me food and drink when I need.

I was reading through page after page of spells in this ancient grimoire. I stumbled upon a great spell one that will free me from this retched curse of not being able to bare a child. I ran down the halls to find Braxton, but on my way, I heard screams from him.

I ran to him, he was lying on the ground with a dead baby screaming at me, calling me a monster. I shook my head in disbelief
"I didn't do this" I cried and fell to my knees
"Just like you didn't kill the others?!" He roared at me, pointing around the room that had carcasses of dead babies.
"No, my love, this wasn't me" I begged him to believe me, I cried harder than I ever have in my life.

I shot up in bed, swear covering my entire body, I've had the same dream, over and over again for the past weeks. My own mind is telling me I'm a monster, who murders fetuses so vigorously. I could taste the salty tears that ran down my face and onto my lips.
"Drew, it was just another dream" Braxton rubbed my back, soothingly. He has been helping my through the nights, calming me down with each dream. Some nights I would have 2 or 3 dreams of the monster that I am.
"I'm sorry" I told him once my breathing had calmed down
"I've gotten quite used to your screams, love" he smiled at me and I placed my head onto his chest and smiled.

I kissed him softly and pulled away, although he'd like more than what I give him. He groaned and fell back onto the bed.

I was no longer able to find any sleep, so I laid in bed and stared at the moon. My magic has improved a lot since I've murdered my baby. But I can't find the spell that I need to keep my demon away. Braxton fell asleep and I was left alone, so I went downstairs to grab some water.

"Can't sleep?" Thanatos asked me when I walked into the kitchen,
"Nope, the nightmares keep getting worse" I let out a shaky breath and drank some water. I then heard a piercing scream coming from Aiden's room.

I ran like lightning to their room, I broke the door down because it was locked.
"Drew! She's going into labor" Aiden was freaking out. I look at Andrea, she was laying in a puddle of liquid and she was already sweating and her hands were placed on her bulging stomach. I looked at Aiden who was shaking uncontrollably, so I picked up Andrea myself with ease.

"Grab her stuff and lets go," I ordered Aiden and stepped over the broken door, he nodded and grabbed a bag from the closet. I walked her down a few halls to the hospital, with her nails digging into my shoulders when a contraction emerged. Werewolves have very fast births and pregnancies. I was quiet jealous of her at this moment actually.

I laid her down in a bed that the doctors directed me to. Aiden walked in behind me and I was ushered out as the doctor came in to deliver the baby. Braxton was already sitting in a chair and I sat next to him.

After  fifteen minutes, I heard a babies cries. The jealousy was eating me alive, I could've been hearing my babies cries some day soon.
"You can go in now" the doctor told us and walked out of the room.

We both walked in and saw Andrea holding a sleeping baby girl. She was so beautiful and peaceful while sleeping in her mothers arms.
"Guys, this is Rebekah" Aiden told us.
"She's so precious" I commented Andrea was crying while looking at her baby.