We Are Of The Reckless Kind

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I think about life a lot.

I mean if we don't do anything to deserve a life, why do we get one?

Well, I say it's fairly simple. I think it's God's way of telling us that we are on this Earth to do something. We aren't here to just mope around and cry all the time. Which is exactly what I do.

I don't deserve a life. But I got one. At least God believes in me, huh?

I know that from what you're reading right now, you must be thinking something like 'Wow, this girl is a hardcore Christian.'

But, I'm exactly the opposite, my dear friends. I call myself a spiritualist. Which doesn't mean I do yoga or any of that stuff. I just believe in God, but the Bible doesn't really reach my expectations as a book.

I know that by now you're all saying 'How can you say that about our holy book?'

Well, shit, sorry.

Anyway, back to the topic of life. I feel like I still need to find my place in this world. And I know figuring that out won't be easy.

I'm still lying in my bed at 11 am because it's Saturday. This week has gone by pretty quickly. I haven't made any friends except for Grace.

My mom bursts into the room, interrupting my trail of thought. "Rise and shine, my sunshine."

I laughed. "Wow, that was almost as cheesy as the time you said I was your 'life'."

"Hey! That was true." she smiled. "Anyway, it's 11 am on a Saturday and you're in bed."

"I am aware of that."

"Well, go out! Socialize!"

"Socializing isn't on my repertoire today. Nor any day actually."

"Oh, come on!" she jumped on my bed and started shaking me.

"You're acting like a pubescent."

She rolled her eyes. "Oh, you and your Shakespearian way of talking."

"Okay, just stop. I'll text Grace."

"Yay!"

The next second she was already out of the room.

'You wanna go to the mall or something my moms making me 'socialize''

She replied 10 seconds later.

'YES I'VE BEEN WAITING TO GO TO THE MALL FOR FOREVER PICK ME UP AT 4'

'ok calm your tits i'll pick you up'

I basically just waited in my room until 4 pm. And at 2 I got up and went downstairs to eat. Very productive I would say.

At approximately 3 pm I decided I would get dressed. Nothing special though. I just wore my black Nirvana tee and some leggings. When 4 pm came I said bye to my mom and ran outside to the car.

I still didn't have my own car. I didn't think I needed once since I leave my house basically only for school.

We got to the mall and she immediately started looking for some specific stores. Which I've never heard of, by the way. I mean, most of my clothes are jeans and t-shirt. And I have this one dress that's collecting dust in the back of the closet.

"Let's go to Victoria's Secret." she squealed.

"Oh, no no no no." No.

"Oh, come on. Why not?" she whined.

I shrugged. "It just isn't my vibe. Too much pink."

"Well, find your vibe and meet me at the food court in half an hour." she said and ran towards the 'secret that Victoria is keeping'.

I didn't what to do so I just started walking around pointlessly. Once I circled the mall, twice, I found this record shop. How did I not notice it before? I shrugged and went inside.

It was this perfect place. It was dark and smoky and you can almost feel like someone is making out in the back room or the janitors closet.

I started looking through the 'G' section because I really needed a new Green Day album. It's been ages since I bought one. It's been ages since I bought any album.

"Nice choice." I heard a voice and turned around.

I almost dropped the album when I saw what or who was in front of me. By the look on his face, he was surprised I was here too.

"Can't you find another person to stalk?" he said with a smirk plastered on his face.

"Oh, Luke. Don't be so full of yourself, babe. Your ego might kill you."

I started walking towards the counter and he followed.

"Why are you here?" he asked.

"Um, I'm buying an album if it's not obvious enough."

He went past me and got behind the counter so I assumed he worked here.

"Why this shop?" he asked as he checked out the album.

I gave him the money for it. "This is the only decent shop I could find in this goddamn mall. I swear I've circled it, twice, and I almost left when I saw this place. This is the highlight of my year so far."

"Because I work here?" he smirked.

I rolled my eyes and walked out of the shop. I went straight to the food court because there was nothing in this mall worth my time. The shops nor Luke.

All I knew right now was that I was hungry as hell, and that that hunger needed to disappear.