Please Don't Go

It'll Be Okay // Chapter 11

Phil's POV

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I woke up the next morning to find an emptiness where Dan used to lay. I looked up but didn't see him in the room. I get up and stretch a little before going all around our flat, trying to find where the hell Dan went to.

"Dan?" I went around the flat yelling, opening all of the doors. I tried calling him, buy it went to voicemail. There was still one room that I hadn't looked in. I was too afraid of what I might see. I slowly approached the bathroom and knocked on the door.

"Dan?" I asked quietly. I heard a gasp and some drawers closing. "I'm coming in," I said as I walked in, slowly opening the door, closing it before I could see what happened.

Dan sat on the floor, tears streaming down his face, his long sleeves balled up in his hands.

"Dan? What's wrong, love?" I asked, sitting down next to him on the floor. Dan covered his face with his hands and cried even more. I saw faint spots of red on his sleeves.

"Dan..." I said, taking both of his hands and holding them with my own. His gaze met mine.

"Dan, would it be alright if I rolled up your sleeves?" I asked softly, caressing his palm with my thumb. He looked right at me but didn't say a word. I took my hands away and slowly and carefully moved his shirt sleeves up.

*trigger warning skip to next bold if you're sensitive. Let me remind me that this is fiction and I have had no personal experience with any of this. Thank you*

I saw them immediately. The bright stripes of red against the white of his skin. My right hand flew up to my mouth as I gasped, and tears began falling down my face. Dan was a stone. I continued rolling up his sleeve and counted the cuts. There were five in total. They didn't look too deep, but they were still bleeding.

"Dan... Why'd you do this?" I asked, looking up at him. He took his hand and pointed at them one by one.

"This one is 'fag'. This one is 'worthless.' This one is 'you deserve pain.' That one is 'you both should quit YouTube.' This one is special," Dan said pointing to one by his wrist. "This one is 'kill yourself.'"

"Dan," I began, tears falling at a rapid pace. "You are beautiful. Don't doubt it for a second. I love you so much. I don't care what other people say. I'm here for you," I said, looking into his eyes. He looked back and nodded.

"I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have and I know that now," Dan said, tears falling. I lifted his chin and kissed him softly. Afterward, I reached down and kissed every one of his stripes.

"I love you so much. So, so much. Please don't but yourself, okay? It'll be okay, okay?" I asked, looking at my fiance with watery eyes.

"Okay," he said, smiling. I got up and got Hello Kitty band aids. I placed them on each of his stripes.

*okay trigger warning over*

"I love you," I said to Dan.

"I love you, too," Dan replied, walking out of the bathroom.

It'll all be okay now.

It'll all be okay.

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Hello my friends!

I'm sorry that this was such a sad chapter. I was sad writing it. I also just can't read through it anymore, so this is unedited.

Let me just say, I have never done what Dan did and if there anyone reading this who has, you are beautiful and don't let above convince you that you aren't. Also, I am not  romanticizing self harm ; I am just using it to spice things up.

Okay, I wish you all a great day.

Byeeeeee!

~^=^~ phanmember101

Love you all!