Please Don't Go

Crying // Chapter 19

"Phil..."

"Dan? Are you alright?" Phil's voice was laced with concern.

"Of course, Phil, I'm fucking fantastic," I spat, crossing my arms.

"Don't talk to me like that. I understand that you're going through a rough time, but you are my husband, and you cannot talk to me like that." Phil stated.

"I'm sorry," I said, tears dripping out of my eyes.

"It's okay. Now, what's wrong?" Phil's eyes melted again. The icebergs melted into a beautiful water sunset. The yellow in his eyes glowed, and I smiled.

"Why're you smiling like that?" Phil asks, confusion plastered on his pretty face.

"I was looking at your eyes," I say, blushing. I tap the metal ring on my finger.

Phil blushed and tried to keep a straight face, but ultimately lost in the end.

"Okay, okay. What's wrong though?"

"I had ... I had a dream."

"Dan..."

"Don't say it like that."

"What happened in the dream?"

"Well," I started, "we were planning, and it felt really real. You then, if I recall correctly, said that you were tired, and it was tired of me."

I heard Phil take in a sharp intake of breath, his hand going up to cover his mouth.

"You then said I only worried about myself, and you didn't love me and you were going to leave and, and, and," I had to stop because I started crying.

"Dan," Phil held me close as I cried into his arms.

"And I don't know why I'm always fucking crying! I'm such a weak-ass of a person! I'm always fucking crying, and I have no reason to! You're right here; we're getting married; God, it was just a figment of my imagination! Why am I still fucking crying, Phil? Why am I still crying?" I looked up to see Phil, tears streaming down his face.

"Crying doesn't make you weak, Dan," Phil wiped the tears from my face. "Crying is a sign of strength. Crying is a sign that you're strong enough to admit defeat."

"Really?"

"Yes, love."

"I'm sorry."

"Its okay."

And so we sit.

No words are exchanged.

We just enjoy each others' presence.

"You know, Dan."

"What's up?"

"I'm happy."

"Yeah, me too."

"No you're not."

I sighed. "I sure as hell happy when I'm where I am right now."

"On this couch?"

"No, silly," I kiss Phil's nose. "I'm happy when I'm with you."

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