My Neighbor Is Vampire

26: being vampire isn't easy

Brandon's POV

"Wow, just wow! grabe Brandon, try to think about it ha, they're fucking happy while you're miserable?! oh gosh, justice please!" Veronica is still talking until now...

Kanina pa siya ganyan actually after we saw the picture of Chloe with Draven and Alexandre..

bakit ganun? wala naman kami naging problema pero bigla nalang ako hindi pinansin ni Chloe simula nang nalaman niya yung kay Draven.

At first ayos lang eh, kasi alam ko di niya din pinapansin si Draven.. pero ngayon okay sila tapos ako hindi niya pinapansin..

Ano bang ginawa sakin ni Chloe?

I'm deadly in love with her scent of blood but i never desired to taste it.. kaya i know na mahal ko na talaga siya.. it's not infatuation or what but a seriously love..

I miss hanging out with her..

I miss her laugh..

I miss her voice..

I miss her..

"Brandon ano ba! Tara na, we're going to hunt human tonight right? Fresh blood!! Yeheey!" Veronica said again..

"I'm not going out tonight.." I said..

Nag iba ang expression nang mukha niya. "Hello? Brandon, it's been a week since the last day you drink human blood! maawa ka naman sa sarili mo! Baka one day manghina ka nalang bigla."

"Just take home a Goat or any animals from the forest.. just NO HUMAN BLOOD!" i said..

Hindi gusto ni Chloe na mambiktima pa ko nang mga inosenteng tao..

"Brandon naririnig mo ba yang sarili mo? ha? That's not you.  i never knew you in that way. Hindi pwedeng animals lang! One week ka nang hindi umiinom nang Blood so why Animals? hindi nun mababalik yung lakas mo!"

"Then i will not drink any blood." I said..

"Magpapakamatay ka ba ha?!" She shouted..

"Chloe doesn't want me to drink human blood.. She'll not gonna like that.." I said..

Veronica throw her phone to my bed, "that fucking Chloe!" She said..

"Shut up" i said..

"She's making you and your life miserable brandon! Wake up!" She said..

"Hindi ako lalabas sa kwarto na'to hangga't hindi kami okay.."

"I will kill her!" Veronica shouted..

Then suddenly my feet ran towards her so fast!  i push her away then hold her neck.. "Don't you dare touch her! Hindi ako magdadalawang isip na dugo mo naman ang inumin ko once na saktan mo si Chloe!"

Tinanggal niya yung pagkakasakal ko sakanya..

"You're not the Brandon i knew anymore.. it's like i'm facing the guy that is worst than a Vampire.." She said. 

She go out to my room..

I don't know what to do.  am i really being a miserable? or i am just running to be a good vampire and they all can't just accept that fact?

but hell yeah, i realized everything after Chloe tells me that drinking human blood or killing human just to overcome my thirst, just to stay my life living, is like removing someone's right to live.. i'm so bad.. It's late when i realize that all. 

"Brandon?"

Mom interrupt my moment. ..

"What?" I asked, a little bit irritated.. she'll just gotta ask me about Veronica.

"What happened to Veronica? why she go out and looks so pissed?" Mom asked, just like what i expect.

"you didn't ask her?" I said. 

"If i ask her, i am not here to ask you." Mom is really great in arguing with someone..

"Owkay, owkay! She just want me to go with her to kill humans and drink their blood." i said.

"Oh," Mom react. She walk towards me and sit down in my bed. "you are not like that before right? If i am not mistaken, you're the one who taught Veronica to drink human blood. you can't blame her if she got mad at you. Because you're acting so clean now."

"Mom, i am not acting a Clean vampire or what. i just realize why drinking human blood if there is some wild animals to replaced. besides they can fulfill  my thirst too."

"Then? Human blood is much fresh and healthier for us."

"I don't care."

"It's just because of Chloe?"

I didn't answer..

"Don't make your life miserable just because of that girl, Brandon."

"i am born miserably, Chloe is just making my life organize. Mom, since the day I've discovered that i am a Vampire, i am already miserable." i said.. "Magulo na buhay ko dati pa, so what would Chloe going to destroy?"

"Brandon, this is what we have, we can't give it back nor rejected it. we only have to do is to accept it!"

"I did not choose to be a fuckin' vampire!" I said.

I really feel so bad.. so sad.  so disappointed.

"Do you think i did?" Mom said, "do you think everyone's did? No one choose to be a vampire, no one wants this. no one wish to be like us.  so don't act like you owned all the problems of being a vampire." She said again..

I feel the sadness on her voice..

"Even me, i want a normal life son, i want to go out anywhere, talk anyone and and do any stupid things, but guess what? i never did. but i try, i experienced hanging out with some humans, it's really fun," she chuckled, "i enjoyed their company so much, but you know what's worst? i used killed them.. I didn't meant that, i mean, i never desired to drink their blood but who can blame me? I am a Vampire..  I can't control myself, i feel very very thirst that day.. because i used to be a good vampire, that's why i feel thirst so so much." I see her tears so i wipe it..

"You know what my point is? It's better to kill other people to over come your thirst than to follow someone's advice to be a good one but one day you could kill 'em without controlling yourself." Mom said again..

i am just looking down and i don't know what to say.. or if i have something to say..

mom is right..

what if kakaiwas kong pumatay nang tao, si Chloe lang din ang mapatay ko?

I am not like Draven who can control his thirst. 

Although i can, but until when?

But, why Good vampires can live without killing people?

I did not choose to be a vampire, but

Why i choose to be a bad fuckin' vampire? If i can be a good one and live with no regrets?

I only have to make a decision for myself.. for my life..

I need to choose if my Family? Or my desire of being a good vampire?

wtf..

Being a vampire isn't easy...