Stardust- A Jyn and Cassian Fanfiction

Chapter 10- Jyn

The sun has finally set, and I'm incredibly exhausted from all of the walking we did today.  There's no way the Empire is catching up to us any time soon.  At least, I would hope that they can't get us.  But even if they do manage to find us, I'll know before they get too close.  Which is an extremely helpful skill to have.  Which brings me to another point.  Is it really the Force? I've been struggling with that ever since that Cassian brought it up.  Where would I get it from? I'm fairly sure that neither of my parents had the Force, but I don't know.  If it is the Force, I have a newfound power that I could use to my advantage.  However, I kind of doubt that I have it.  But Cassian seems entirely sure.  I look over at him, seeing him on his back, watching the stars.  He made a fire, and it sparks and crackles, emitting an orange glow.

"Cassian?" I ask carefully.

He looks over at me, smiling kindly.  "Yeah?"

"Do I really have the Force?"

"Absolutely." he says confidently, sitting up.  "I've seen a couple of Force users in my day.  You have too." He starts, but falters.  He doesn't really want to remember Chirrut and everyone else who died.  I don't either.  

"But you definitely are." He continues.

"But how come it helps me in random bursts?" I counter.  "If I have it, it's only helped me a couple of times.  It's so rare, it could almost be passed off as nothing more than luck."

"What do all of the instances have in common?" he asks.

"Well..." I start, then quickly blush when I realize the common factor.  "You."

He laughs.  "As touching as that is, I'm very sure it's not me.  I'm not that important.  Can you think of any other similarities?"

"Uh, I was in a dangerous situation.  But those aren't the only dangerous situations I've ever had to deal with."  I say, confused.

"Maybe it's because you felt an intense emotion." he points out.  "Which caused it to awaken inside of you."

"I suppose." I say.  "But I always feel tense if I'm in danger."

I evidently have confused him.  I'm just as baffled as he is.  But slowly, ideas start to bubble in my head, coming all together.  I run through all of the instances, remembering what happened.  First of all, we survived the blast.  I was sad and scared.  Not for me, but for Cassian.  I'm worth nothing.  He's an asset to the Rebellion.  Secondly, I mind tricked a stormtrooper.  Cassian wasn't able to get us out of it, so I did.  I was afraid.  Thirdly, when Cassian was about to be murdered, I stopped laser fire in midair to save him.  I was terrified of losing him, and I had to stop that bullet.  I had to. It clearly has to do with emotions.  Everything happened when I felt strong emotions.  And then it hits me. It's not emotions for myself.  I realize suddenly.  It's for Cassian.  

My mouth opens slightly.  "Cassian." I start.  "It's emotional.  But it happens when I feel an intense emotion for someone else."

"But what emotion?" he asks curiously.

"I'm not sure.  Fear?" I suggest.  Although it doesn't really add up, I think that's the best answer I'm going to come up with now.  

"Fear of what?"

"Of you dying, I guess." I say tentatively.  This just doesn't add up.  It felt like fear to me, but for some reason, my heart is positive that it's not fear.  Somehow, it just knows.  It must be another emotion.  An emotion I haven't ever felt before, and can't recognize.  But what?  I push the question aside for now, returning to reality.