I'm Just the Way the Doctor Made Me 'Completed'

Chapter 10

Gerard's POV

I woke up with Frank snuggled up agains my chest, still asleep. He looked so adorable as he slowly breathes in and out, on of his hands clutched my shirt.

I looked around, it was still dark out, I wondered what time it was. As if on cue a nurse walked in, 'What time is it?" I gave him the note. He glanced at his watch, "Four, do you want to get your vitals right now?" I nodded and gently unlatched Franks hand on my shirt and got up.

"Were you sleeping with Frank?" 'Yeah, we didnt fuck, he just sorta didn't want to sleep alone.' I wrote, the nurse, Alex, raised and eyebrow at me but didn't ask anymore questions.

After vitals and weighting, I went back to my room. I entered the room and heard crying, I ran in and saw Frank in a ball sobbing. I went up to him and shook him gently. I thought about talking but I heard the voices

-Are you really going to talk? After what you did? After what happened?

I shuddered, I couldn't talk. I shook him a little less gently.
Frank suddenly sat up and clung to me, "Oh Gerard! I had a terrible dream!" I stroked his head and held him close as he clutched me, getting my shirt wet with tears.

"I dreamed of my suicide attempt, I hate that dream.. I-I don't want to die anymore."

My eyes widened in shock, he was the light in the darkness. Even though I barely knew him, he made me feel loved.

"What's going on?"Alex came in, Frank must've been crying on me for half a hour. "N-nothing I just had a bad dream." Frank stuttered. Alex looked at him sympathetically, "Im sorry, do you want some meds for that?" He nodded and followed Alex out of the room. I sighed, I was tired. I got under the covers and waited for Frank to come back.

Soon he came back and climbed in and I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him close and we as we almost fell asleep Frank looked up and asked if I would always be with him. I smiled, nodded, and kissed his lips. He smiled and we fell asleep. Frank had no nightmares and neither did I, I always had at least one every night. So this was very reassuring to me.

Frank's POV

I fell asleep with Gerard behind me, arms around my waist, I felt self conscious of my fat waist but he didn't seem to notice. I drifted off to sleep rather quickly.

I walked to my room, I had had enough, I made up my mind, I took my time, I hurried up. I grabbed my razor and went to the bathroom in the hall.

I cut my left wrist and used the blood to right a suicide note on the mirror .'This the end of me. This was a war, i lost the battle.'

I opens the cabinet, there was a bottle of sleeping pills intended for my brother who had insomnia. I took one, Wake up!, three Oh my god, Frank wake up I hate this dream!, fi-

I woke up with a start, and realized I was crying, and I was alone. I started crying harder and wanted Gerard. I curled up in a ball and cried. I felt someone come in and shake me less gently and I turned around and saw it was Gerard. "Oh Gerard! I had a terrible dream!"

I flung myself on him and cried even harder. I was getting his shirt wet but I couldn't stop crying, I was shaking badly. "I dreamed of my suicide attempt, I hate that dream.. I-I don't want to die anymore." He held me closer and stroked my head soothingly.

"What's going on?" A nurse with brown hair and a slight British accent entered the room, "N-nothing I just had a bad dream." I stuttered. He sympathetically asked if I wanted meds for that, I nodded my head and followed him .

He also got my weight and height, I asked for my weight but he refused to give it to me. He also took my vitals, I had to lay, sit, and stand for them. They called it ortho vitals or something. I don't know what for, but I just wish it would hurry up, I wanted to get back and snuggle with Gerard. I was tired and cold.

After about five minutes, I walked back in and climbed into bed. Gerard pulled me close to himself, "Gerard, will you always be with me?" He nodded and I leaned up and kissed him and we both fell asleep.