Good Girl Gone Bad

5. Worth The Wait

I start to avoid him the next day when he tried to talk; I just started to walk away. I only saw him in the metro that day; I didn't see him again for another two days.

I stood there lost in my thoughts when I suddenly felt an arm wrapping around my waist, pulling me in. That's when I saw him again.

I tried to look away but he turned my face making sure that I faced him.

"Why have you been avoiding me?"

I didn't answer him. What was I supposed to tell him?

"It's because of what happened that day, isn't it? I'm sorry! I didn't mean to do that. We just became good friends and I ruined it. I'd really like to apologize. I promise that I won't do anything like that ever again, can we go back to being friends again?"

My heart started to melt when he said sorry, he didn't do anything, I was the one avoiding him. Why doesn't he get that I like him and I just can't seem to act normal around him and that's why I've been avoiding him. How can I just be around him when I clearly know that he doesn't have any feelings for me and I'm just going to get hurt if I continued to talk to him.

"No, we can't. I'm sorry if I hurt you, I didn't intend to."

"Can't you see that you're hurting me now? I said I was sorry,"

"Don't be sorry, there's nothing for you to be sorry about."

"Then what is it?"

I just stood there looking into his eyes and that's when he started to pull me in close. Then, he kissed me and I kissed him back. It felt as if there was an electric impulse running through my body. We stood there kissing until my stop came; I start to pull back and walk away. I didn't even say good bye nor look back.

What the hell is wrong with me? Why did I just kiss him back, why didn't I just pull away? Doesn't this mean that he likes me? It doesn't matter, I can't do this. As if all that wasn't bad enough, I just walked away without saying a word to him. I'm just going to end up getting hurt and hurt him too. I need to control my feelings, it can never happen again.

The next day, I start to avoid him and just when I thought I managed a day successfully, he comes over.

He had a furious look on his face and I wouldn't blame him but I hated being the reason. I tried to walk away but he started to pull me in.

"Why do you keep doing this to me?"

I don't say anything.

"Damn it. Answer me," he sighs.

When he notices that he isn't going to get an answer right now he says, "You need to stop doing this, avoiding me isn't going to change anything. I know I shouldn't have kissed you but I know that's what you wanted too but I wasn't too sure until you kissed me back. At that moment, I decided that I wasn't going to let you go. Now it's up to you! Why are you pushing me away, when it's clear what you want? You've got to learn to let go of everything else and hold on to things that you actually want. Don't go chasing after something that you don't want."

What the hell is he talking about?

That's when Neil enters and then it hits me. He must have thought that I and Neil are in a relation and that's probably why he hesitated that day and the reason why he's saying all this now.

Neil is my best friend, nothing more and nothing less. He's one of the few guys that I'm close with. When you're best friends with a guy, people tend to assume things and that's how it was in our case but we never really hung out much but that's how it is, if they see you laughing and talking with a guy, it's more than enough for them.

At first I felt bad that people were judging me but later on I got used to it and I started to realise that you can't always consider other's opinion. If the ones important to you know, that's more than enough. I just couldn't believe that he was one of them, he's important to me but he doesn't know. I decide not to tell him right away.

He lets me go once he sees Neil, he glares at Neil and starts to walk away.

"What happened? Why is he giving me the death glare?" Neil asks

"Long story short. We both like each other but he thinks that I'm in a relationship with you."

"Why didn't you just tell him?"

"How could he just assume that and not even ask me about it? I had to figure it out all on my own, so I'm going to let him suffer a little. I'll tell him tomorrow."

"So daddy's girl is getting into a relationship eh?" he winks

"Shut up! I don't want to but I want to, does that even make sense?"

He laughs and says "No, but I know what you mean. Don't play with his feelings though, you're both going to end up getting hurt. I want you to think about this a little more, this could change everything but you can always rely on me, I'll always be there for you and if he ever does hurt you, I'll make sure that he pays for it."

"I'm done with thinking a lot, i'm just going to go with my gut and you know you're so sweet!"

He smiles and says, "Let's get going, it's getting late."

It had become pretty late, we both got caught up talking that we didn't realise the time. We both parted ways and I head towards the metro. He wasn't around, I guess he probably left. I smile to myself thinking about how my life had started to change drastically.

I head home and I start to sleep peacefully, waiting for tomorrow.