Thoughts of a teenage girl | Story of Lirah

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So I have an interesting story that happend actually not to long ago. A person at my school asked me to be his senpai. I'm not gonna say who so I'll just make up a name for him. Alright so first off, a senpai is a Japaneses term meaning: Somebody you admire or someone you want attention from. Another meaning for it is like someone you want to be in a romantic relationship with. Alright now that that's out of the way lets get on with the story. Ok so me and Brandon started talking cause we were partners in a english project. Anyway, in third hour he told me that I was his senpai. I was flattered honestly, I usually don't get attention from boys cause you know I'm Lirah, so I just thought, Wow this guy admires me that's awesome! So anyway, I told him that was sweet of him to say and he just continued to call me his senpai. The he suddenly started flirting with me, that's when it got a little weird I mean I like someone else at my school probably more than Brandon liked me. Anyway, I when along with it. I told him thank you for the complements like anyone else would do. Then a week later he asked me to BE his senpai. I asked him what he meant and he said "Like my girlfriend". I had to think about this, I honestly didn't wanna hurt his feelings so I said, "I can't...I'm already someones senpai at this school"  Though that most likely did hurt his feelings anyway, but he said that he understood to this day we're still friends and there aren't any hard feelings. I guess it was quite interesting to have a guy approach me first. I'm like really socially awkward trust me. I will do the weirdest shit when I'm nervous or meeting a new person, and I slur my words together when I'm nervous or excited, I'm just weird okay! Don't judge me please. This is fucking planet fitness shit, this is a judgement free-zone!!!!! 

Just ignore me please. You'll die from the cringyness. I'm serious, my sister literally ignores me because I'm so fucking abnormal. 

I actually wanna tell another story about someone hitting on me, but this time I didn't necessarily reject them they were just weirded out by my effing weirdness.  Anyway, so I attended this high school to play volleyball at, though I'm home schooled I did play volleyball at a public school and that was a very interesting experience. Maybe I'll talk about it in a later chapter. Anyway, this girl from the basketball team came up to me and said, "Are you allowed to like people of the same sex in your religion?" Now let me get this straight, my family is like super religious and I'm forced to be religious with them until I turn sixteen then I'm a free elf! (Ignore that) Anyway I honestly didn't know what to say to her, because low-key she was hitting on me I could tell. So I got all super excited because like a girl was trying to talk to me! I was so ugh I can't even explain. (This was before I met that special person by the way) Anyway, honestly homosexuality is like a sin in this religion so what I said was, "Actually we're not allowed to like people of the same sex, but that doesn't mean I don't like people of the same sex."  She just stared at me like I was stupid and looked over to her friends who I came to realize were staring at us the whole time. Then the girl looked back to me and said something along the lines of, "Kay." Then left. So yeah... I felt stupid cause I low-key am. Anyway, I felt kinda bad. But I just went about my own stuff. And tried to forget what just happend. And I guess that's it. 

Those are the only two stories I'm going to tell for now cause those are the only two that came to mind while I was showering so yeah. Hoped that entertained you somehow even though it most likely didn't but whatever! Bye.-Lirah N.Y

P.S. I think I need to stop swearing....