So I wanted to address some weird stuff that's been on my mind. For one, I was in a situation that I honestly never been in before. Here's what happend. So I changed my profile picture to this girl that I think is very pretty and her facial expression reflects my personality a lot so I thought it was would be clever for it to be my profile picture. Anyway, remember that special person? I'll get to him later but anyway, He asked me if that was a picture of me. Which I would understand why he would ask me that. Anyway, I started feeling a slight tug of insecurity. Cause most of the time, I could really careless about how I look, however this special person means a lot to me and I don't want him to think I'm ugly or whatever. Cause right now he really likes me and I like him too, however I think if he really thought that that picture was me it most likely got his hopes up. Cause that is so much far from how I look. Anyway, that girl is so much more prettier than I am. And like her eyebrows are sooooo perfect and her hair and her face and her eyes and her lips oh my gosh she is everything I want to be. But the thing is, I didn't realize that I want her features so much until that special person said something about it. And I know he didn't mean anything wrong by it he would never right? I just think to much about everything and I just took it the wrong way. Though I think I played off the situation as if it was nothing but it was kinda something. I don't feel insecure about my looks most of the time. But I guess being in love makes you think and do crazy ass shit right?
Anyway, I've been obsessed with Ed Sheeran's music lately. I don't know why.
Also I miss playing video games. I haven't played in so long. I've been so busy and it's weird cause most people that are in my life don't realize how busy I am. Like I've been working so hard to get my phone back (I'll talk about that later), and I've been trying to get this money in so I can buy myself a plate for my car and an Xbox one. Plus I have five younger siblings that I have to take care of. And I've got school. And I'm trying to find a summer job and volunteer work. Seriously, If I had time to play video games I totally would play. You know, I'd stream and play games and listen to music. That sounds like heaven right now. But I'm just so freakin busy. The thing is, I love being busy. It keeps my mind off things and just puts me into a position where I have a purpose. Yeah I know it's kinda selfish for me to take advantage of activities to make me feel like I have a purpose. I just can't help it. I'm trying though trust me.
Fun fact, I have a total of three sock monkeys. Thomas, Fred, and billy. Those are like my friends. I also have two penguins, Waddles and Ice cube. Their adorable as frick. I also sleep under a hello kitty cover, I'm such a child. lol
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Thoughts of a teenage girl | Story of Lirah
Teen Fiction"They say:Be true to yourself and nothing will go wrong, but sometimes I wonder, how can you be true to yourself when you don't even know who you are anymore"
