Sweetest Devotion

All I Ask

Adeles POV

The door slowly squeaks opens, sending a patch of light into the cold, pitch black room. 

I look up squinting my eyes I manage to see a figure. 

Simons figure.

"Adele?" I hear him whisper. 

He slowly enters our room. 

Making his way over to where I'm sitting with my back against the wall facing the door.

"I'm so sorry this is all my fault. I can't stand to see you like this again, to see," his voice breaks. I don't look up at him, but I can feel his eyes glued to me. "To see the love of my life crying all because of me. I should have thought it through before I answered. I've already broken you before by not thinking before I speak, and I'm sorry. I want you to be mine Delly, all mine but, you and I both know a lot is going on right now. We just have to wait awhile longer." He says, slowly sitting down next to me.

I sit there still not turning to make eye contact with him. I just focus straight ahead, in the pitch black. "I'm really sorry babe..." He turns to me and tries to put his arm around me.

"Simon...don't," I say pushing him away, "And don't tell me to wait, Simon, I've been waiting ever since the day I met you." I begin to raise my voice, as tears fall down my face, "We have fought recently, and as soon as I thought everything was working out, we had to fight again. Why can't you just simply think before you speak? It would prevent this from happening," pausing I take a deep breath, "I don't know anymore, Simon," I whisper turning towards him, tears streaming down my face.

I can make out the outline of his face, "I honestly do love you I truly do, it's just-," I pause again. 

Simon takes my hand shaking his head. 

I can feel my tears falling down onto his hands.

"No Adele, stop you don't know what your saying-,"

"I love you too much, and it hurts, even more, every time we fight because that's pulling us farther and farther away from each other. And since we aren't married, how do I know you won't leave me... you've done it plenty of times already, at the times I needed you the most." 

I can feel his hands start to shake causing me to look down at the outline of his hand in mine. 

I take this feeling in just in case it's the last time we touch. 

He starts whimpering.

"I' scared, okay!" He blurts out. "I'm scared because I've never loved anyone as much as I love you, babe. I, I almost lost that a few days ago which makes me even more scared. Adele, I'm going to learn, I promise. Just give me some time. Don't worry I know I can do it. I'm going to start thinking stuff through twice before I answer you if that's what's needed to be done to prevent this to keep happening I will do it. I want us more than anything in the world, In order for the 'us' to happen, I need you."

"Simon I'm just... I'm tired of fighting I'm tired of everything I... I just can't." I pull my hand from his and bury my face in my hands and sob.

"You can't give up yet. We have made history, and life, I mean look, look at how amazing our children are, and the one inside you. We can't throw away everything we've done. I know for a fact I'm not giving up on us. I haven't from the day we met, and I'm not gonna give up now, not ever. We have done too much to give up, and I promise you we Will get married." He says, with tears streaming down his face.