Flashback ...
"Kendall stop being so stubborn , just come out , it's just a dress " Cara tries to persuade me to come out of the dressing room
"I look awful " I groan
"I'm sure you look gorgeous " Gigi's soft voice fills the air
"Thank you but you don't know that , you can't even see me ." I growl
"Kendall ,if you don't get that as-butt of yours out that cabine ,i will come inside and drag you out myself , i don't care if you are fully dressed or completely naked " Andrew threatens
"Andrew shut up ! This dress is hideous " I look at myself in this ugly dress
"Kendall just get out , if it's ugly we will look elsewhere " zayn finally speaks
"Fiiine" i groan and open the door
"Damn"
"Woah"
"You are insane"
"Nope"
They all say in unison
"I knew it was ugly " I face palm myself
"Hideous ? Did you look in the mirror ? " Cara says
"I did matter of factly " I roll my eyes at her
" kendall get in that cabine , get changed and let's go " Zayn nods approving the dress
Really ?
"You are so getting that dress " Gi leans on zayn and he wraps his arms around her .
Andrew makes gagging sounds and Gi swats him playfully on the shoulder
"Kendall i agree with zayn when he said to get changed and let's go , but you are not going to buy this dress , nah uh , nope " Andrew shakes his head
"If I want to get this dress i will andrew " I narrow my eyes at my stubborn brother
"If you want me to get in a fight sister get that dress , but make sure to bail me out " he shots me a sarcastic smile .
" Andy you won't get in a fight and I won't bail you out , because this dress is hideous " I roll my eyes and point to the dress I am wearing
"Ken sweety you know I love you but trust me when I say that I won't hesitate to slap you across the face " cara smiles sweetly au contrast of the words she just said
"So you go get changed and we are getting that dress "
"She is not goi-"Andrew starts to say but cara cut him off
"Oh Andrew would you give it a rest ! She looks beautiful in that dress , she is taking it " she looks at him an pout
" Fiiiiine " he huffs
I try to stiffle my laugh and get inside the cabine . I do not like this dress it's too ... classy . But they didn't give me a choice .
After I put my clothes back on , I meet up with them at the cashier .
"So you're taking it ?"Gi literally claps her hands
"It's not like I had a choice " I murmur
When I push the dress to pay for it .
Cara nudges Andrew and he rolls his eyes
"I'll pay for it " he groans
"You , will pay for this hideous dress that minutes ago threate-"
"Oh shut up " he snatches the dress from my hands and go to pay for it .
Cara has a proud smile on her face .And a giggle escapes my lips .
The things he can do for this girl .
He is head over heals for her , yet this idiot can't admit his feelings .
End of flashback
My vision is blurry by the moisture that made it way at the memory .
I never wore that dress , I couldn't bring myself to wear it .
It was the only dress he ever bought for me .
I wipe my eyes , enough crying for today .
I pull the duvet closer to my face and close my eyes .
I feel myself drifting into sleep in a matter of seconds .
I wake up in the middle of the night to get a glass of water .
I pad to the kitchen and open the faucet to fill my glass . The moment I bring the thin glass between my lips it slips from my hand and shatters on the concrete floor with a loud crash sound that fills the air .
I try to collect the broken pieces , but when I look down the floor the water has turned into blood . I pull my hands quickly and take a step back .
When I look around me , I'm not sitting on the cold floor anymore , I am in a car . My car .
Honking Horns blow the air . Strong lights blinds me .
no , please not again ...
"I love you kenny " I look next to me on the passenger seat and Andrew is sitting in it .
His face holds a horrific expression and his hand is gripping mine strongly .
I try to turn the wheel but I can't move .
"No" please no
"I'm so sorry Andy " I tell him before the truck hits the passenger side of the car and andrew's body jerks away .
I try to screw my eyes shut so I won't witness the accident and the life of my own brother slipping away . But my eyes wouldn't oblige and here I am witnessing this over and over for the nth time . They couldn't leave this horrific scene . And my insides have been ripped from my body and tossed into the cold concrete . I can't bear to watch this but I am forced to do so anyway .
"I love you kenny "
Comeback , please , no, no
"No" finally my voice comes as I scream silencing the sounds that engulfed the air and I jerk awake
"I'm sorry Andy " I cry
I am all sweating and panting . My heart is hammering against my rib cage .
The memoriea are stuck in my brain . I feel them . It feels real .
I think about calling one of the girls but something inside me pushes me to call someone else .
I grab my phone and before I know what I am doing I am dialing the one number I never thought I would call .
The voice on the otherline answers , before I have the chance to hung up
"Hello ?
YOU ARE READING
If ...
FanfictionRemember that if he was still alive you wouldn't be here in spain , you wouldn't have went to the bernabeu , I wouldn't have met you , you wouldn't be here in this right moment , and I wouldn't havee been able to do this " he whispers the last part...
