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Chapter 20

A/n: wattpad is giving me a hard time these days . If this chapter doesn't end with this sentence " Or maybe because he is here . Inner me butts in before I completely lose contact with the world ." You should probably delet the story from your library and add it again . I'm sorry but there is a problem with the network these days . Hope you'll like this chapter and don't forget to vote <3

"Hello ? "

"Kendall ?" A whimper escapes my lips at the sound of his voice

"Ken are you okay ? " cristiano says , his voice as raspy as ever and thick with sleep

"No " I sobb

"Is there something wrong ? Are you hurt ?" He asks in a sleepy voice and I hear shuffling on the otherline before hearing the click of a lamp .

" N-n no I'm not hurt " I take deep breaths to try to calm myself .

I wipe my eyes furiously .

"I'm sorry I don't know why I called you , it's late , I shouldn't have called you . I'm sorry for waking you up " I rush my words embarrassed by my sudden act .

"Wait , don't hung up . I don't mind you calling me this late . Are you really okay ? What's wrong ? You can talk to me ..." his voice fills my ear and my body relaxes to the melody that comes out of his mouth .

" It's nothing really . I just ... i-i " I sigh "I don't know why I called you , I just had this uh ... " should I tell him about the nightmare ? Well I can tell him that I had a nightmare without saying it's content .

"... a nightmare " after voicing my thoughts outloud , I do really sound pathetic .

"Nightmare ? Do you wanna talk about it ? " his voice is heavy with sleep and I feel guilty for waking him up and depriving him from his sleep .

I shake my head no , before remembering that he can't see me  "No , I usually go out for runs , but it's pretty dark and I still don't know the city much and I am afraid to go out alone because cara is sleeping , I mean my roommate is sleeping  " I ramble and heat creeps through my neck . I can't seem to have a filter around him .

"You want to go for a run ? Wait .. you run ? " he asks surprised

"Yes and yes , but it's late , well early " I say after checking the time .

"It's okay I can go with you , I don't mind , text me the address and I will be there " his voice laced with sleep .

"No , no you don't have to , I'm fine now , really " and it's awfully true , I slightly feel better and my mind is drifting from the sour memories of the nightmare .

"Ken you still there ? "

" uh yeah sorry I'm here , I zoned out . Could you repeat what you said" I say in a small voice

"It's alright , I said that it's no problem really , just text me the address . I'm already up now and I was planning to go for a run anyways  " his tone is calm

"You sure it's no bother to you ? " I ask embarrassment clear in my voice

"Kendall just text me the address " his irritation is growing

"Okay , bye " I huff in annoyance at his tone and without waiting for his response I end the call .

I text him the address and start getting ready .

I pull a sweatshirt on and debate whether to wear shorts or not .

I might be a model but still , I'm not a fan of showing up my body outside the studio . Ironic ? I know

I just feel exposed when I go out wearing only a tank top or shorts , I always put a cardigan on .

After my personal debate of whether to wear shorts or not , I decide against it and pull my calf length leggings on .

I grab a hair band to pull my hair into a ponytail , but my phone buzzes before I get the chance to do it .

It's a text from cristiano

*I'm in front of the building *

I grab my phone , pull my snickers on and rush towards the door .

On my way out I check on cara . She's still sleeping a deep frown drawn on her face . My hearts sinks for her and I shake my head before closing the door .

I jog towards the elevator . It will take  forever to arrive . I decide to take the staircase .

I take two stairs at a time and run to the building's entry .

When I open the door the chilly air hits my face and bare legs . I pull my sleeves down and look arround for cristiano .

I don't know his ca.. Before I can finish my thought a car honking startled me and I slightly jump around to face the man who accepted to go for a run with me at 4 am .

I make my way towards his black Range Rover and open the passenger door .

The air helds an awkward tension , I wait for him to say something , but he doesn't .

"Um Good morning , thank you for picking me up and for uhm going for a run with me this early , I know you said it's okay but still thank you " I ramble

"Okay " he says without sparing me a glance and starts the car .

The engine roars to life and the car runs smoothly on the asphalt .

I look at him puzzled with his sudden change of mood . This guy in front of me is not the same guy that talked to me on the phone . His face is twisted in annoyance and I feel as if he really doesn't want to be here with me in the same car .

Embarrassment is all I feel now . My cheeks are flushed and a shiver take over my body .

I mentally scold myself for not bringing my earbuds because this silence is suffocating me .

I look outside the window and let myself drown in my own thoughts .

I put my cheek on the cold window and rub my hands together to heat them up .

Cristiano must have noticed my action because he leans and turn the heat on full blast .

I silently thank him and look out the window again.

Madrid is such a beautiful city . The streets are deserted the sky is gray blue which means the sun is going to rise soon . The way the buildings hold the same architecture design fascinates me and I can't help but feel amazed by the beauty of this city .

Maybe it's the silence , how the car runs in a smooth relaxing way or the heat , that made my eyelids close , my brain to shut off and me to drift to sleep .

Or maybe because he is here . Inner me butts in before I completely lose contact with the world .