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Chapter 7

That night was the night life played a sick game with me  

An unfair game . A game that flipped my life up side down.

Flashback ...

"Andrew you are drunk . Again ! " i shout at my brother before helping him get in the car .

" it's not your god damn business ! if want to get shitfaced , i will . And that is exactly what i did . " he slurred

"Zayn i told you to keep an eye on him . " i turm towards the caramel eyed boy .

"i did , he needs this . You need it too . i were you i would be drunk to the bones "

"well i am not you . and i wouldn't drink . it's not like it could fix anything " i tell him

" i'll drive him home " i sigh and get in the car

zayn looks at me from the window and says

" i'm sorry kenny "

" i don't need pitty zayn . you out of all people should know that "

i hated when people would pitty me because of my fathers sickness or how my mom turned into a workaholic .

i basically have to take care of myself , andrew and Kylie .

"i'm not pitting you kendall "

I shake my head and then starts driving towards the house .

" who even throws a party on a Tuesday night ? like seriously "

" not everyone is a stuck up bitch with no social life like you kendall . Wake up and face the world . i'm sorry to blow up your little bubble but the world is not all rainbows and unicorns "
Andrew barks

" you are drunk you have no idea what you're talking about so just shut up andrew ! i have enough on my plate , i don't need your drunk comments now " i raise my voice

why can't he be a silent drunk . noo , he has to bring all the awful things in the world and rub them on my face .

" Kendall , dad is fucking dying ! No fucking doctor can do a damn thing about it . No donor is compatible , and when they are they die . So please little sister i am the one whos plate is full , spilling full . " his voice booms in the little space of the car .

The tears that i have been holding all day , since i heard the news , found their way down my cheeks . And i can't help but sob my misery out .

" kendall .. kenny i'm sorry , i didn't mean to . i am pissed drunk . i don't mean what i am saying . Fucking hell" he curses and tuggs at the roots of his hair

" kendall look at me " he says lifting my chin to look at him

" i'm driving andrew" i say and look at the road again

"i'm sorry . this day have been hell . you know it . i shouldn't have said those awful things to you . you know i don't mean them . you are my sister for christ sake , my twin even . of course i don't mean any of the horrible things i just said "

i wipe my eyes and try to force a smile at my drunk pissed hurt twin brother .

"it's okay . don't sweat it out andy "

" you ain't going to fool me with that fake ass smile of yours . i know better than that . cmon smile a real genuine one " he smiles at me dimples showing

i shot him a fake smile .

" so this is how you're going to play it huh ?" he smirks a wicked smirk and i know what's coming next

" oh no andrew i am driving ! And can you give the cursing a break . Jeez "

he grins and then starts ticklong me mercilessly .

" andrew ..an.. i. am ..ddri ..ven " i say between laughter and then smile until my cheeks hurt

" that's what i am talking about " he says and let go of me when he notices my smile

" you dimwit , i am driving . " i laugh

" i don't care " he shrugs

" how can you go from cursing me out into laughing in seconds " i shake my head at him

" because i'm great , that's why " he smiles

" i hate you " i chuckle

" no you don't . You love me and i love you "

just then a blazing light blinds my vision and sounds or horns blowing fill the air .

the last thing before everything went black was andrew eyes on me .

the last thing i felt was his hand gripping mine

and the last thing i heard was I Love you kenny .