Through Chaos As It Swirls//Coldplay

Chapter Eleven

Phil's Pov

(Flashback)

The night was cold and all I remember it being a horrid blurry mess.

I remember exactly that Reese had brought it officially to me that he had cancer.

"Reese, you're kidding right?" I asked.

He locked his teary pale eyes into mine and he wasn't kidding around here and I felt my face drop.

"I'm sorry" he cried.

I was in too much shock to move and my feet remained flat on the floor as I couldn't think straight.

Tears rolled down my face and I felt my smile earlier drop, I don't want to fail now that especially that he was now technically my son but to make it less awkward I'd say he's like a little brother.

Tears rolled and rolled and anger rose in my stomach and I wanted to find his real mother and tell her how horrible she has been to him for basically abandoning him to his father who didn't care either.

It seemed I had been standing in that spot forever but it was two full minutes and every time he blinked it's like I saw his life through my own eyes.

The pain and suffering for this kid couldn't even be explained it's all too much and he defiantly doesn't ever deserve that pain again.

I felt my legs move somehow and I unlocked myself from the gaze and I felt my legs run fast, then faster and then so fast I couldn't stop.

I opened the door of the stairs and I began running down five flights of stairs and I didn't look back.

I exited the side door when I reached the bottom so no one didn't make a scene if I ran out the main entrance.

I kept running and I never felt myself look back once, I kept going and I couldn't stop.

I ran across the street, through the city, the park everywhere that I can think of and I ended up in a park about two miles away.

I sat on the old park bench and I covered my face and I began to cry uncontrollably.

I felt a hand tap my shoulder and I gazed up and Chris was staring back down at me.

"W-what, h-how did you find m-me?" I stuttered out.

"It wasn't hard, I saw you run out the side of the hotel while I was coming back from an afternoon jog and I followed you" he said.

"What seems to be wrong Phil?" He added.

"It, i-its Reese" I cried out.

"What's wrong with him mate?" Chris asked in a more serious tone.

"H-he's...." I stuttered but nothing else came from my throat except sobs and Chris sat down on the bench beside me and he wrapped his arms around me giving me a nice long hug.

"It's going to be okay whatever is occurring, I promise it'll be okay" he softly spoke to me.

I pulled away and tried to wipe my tears away the best I could and I tried to speak clear.

"He, he has lung c-cancer" I whispered and tears continued rolling down from eyes.

Chris's blue ocean like eyes seemed to grow paler by the second, he was in complete shock and couldn't believe it.

"He what?!" He blurted out.

I nodded my head and he stood up and raised his arms in complete anger because I felt the same way.

He immediately called up Guy, Will and Jonny to tell them the news and so they could keep a close eye on Reese.

Chris began to rage, "it's not fair, Reese out of all people doesn't deserve this and from the life he's lived it's not fair".

I remained on the bench and cried while Chris paced back and fourth thinking what to do.

Chris eventually calmed down and he came back to the bench and sat down gentle.

He hugged me again as I cried and he helped me to and he suggested we start to head back to the hotel.

Chris helped me up and we started walking out of the park and we walked onto the sidewalk.

Chris and I continued down the cross walk and the hotel was right across the street and we didn't have a whole lot of time to cross.

Chris jogged across but my head started pounding and aching and I completely froze on the cross walk.

I saw Chris wave at me and he yelled at me to come along but I couldn't and before I knew I panicked with thoughts.

Reese doesn't love you
You're a terrible man and friend, you'll never be his "real" dad
He may die from cancer
You're the forgotten one in Coldplay
You're worth nothing
Nothing you do is right
You're worthless.
Reese will die when you're his father

Tears spilled down and before I knew it the timer was up on the cross walk and the light turned green.

The sound of a vehicle rumbled and smashed right into my body, the sound was metal hitting flesh.

The headlights were bright and they didn't seem to stop as they drove full speed up ahead.

I hit the ground hard not being able to breathe and the car rolled right over me crushing my leg and the driver didn't seem to notice but whoever it was kept driving.

They drove across my upper thigh and I began screaming in pain and I cried all at once too.

My leg was shattered and I hit my head fairly hard also and my breathing began to quicken same with my heart beat.

I felt my femur for sure snap and I also felt my rips aching and also the same with my arm.

I noticed my shirt was caught into the rim of the tire and I felt my body beginning to be dragged and I couldn't pull my shirt out from the pain.

I screamed loudly as I was being dragged by the car.

Suddenly the car shrieked to a sharp stop causing me to slam my head again and this time my vision cut immediately off.

I was trapped in this darkness, it was best to probably know that I'm dead and no one ever seemed to take a moment and notice or even care.

It's best if I'm dead anyway.