Through Chaos As It Swirls//Coldplay

Chapter Twenty Nine

"i'm a mess and i'm sorry for ruining everything."
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the words rang through my ears sending shivers down my spine. my feet anchored to the floor i didn't know exactly what to do, i slid my hand into my pocket to at least call phil and have another source of help.

my fingers began dancing on the blurry screen and a swift movement shuffled around the bed, my body still frozen i tried to make out what was happening.

"reese please don't tell him, he's disappointed in me enough i can't keep doing this to him" chris wheezed and soon enough began vomiting all over the bed sheets.

my legs quickly unfroze as if the sun shined through my body just telling me exactly what to do while melting my frozen legs.

i ran as fast as my weak legs could carry me to the bathroom, i grabbed all the towels and cleaning supplies i could, i pulled back the soaked covers and gently wrapping the remaining clean towels around chris.

he was shivering, goosebumps multiplied and layered his arms and legs. all i could see was white skin, it looked like snow gently falling onto the face of the earth for the first time.

i shredded all the sheets off the bed and threw them in frustration to the floor, chris quivered with the towels on the bed and i started panicking. from the looks of the bathroom it looked like he nearly drowned himself.

"chris, there's nothing i can do to help you, i'm not what you need please just let me call for help this is unhealthy"

"reese no, please don't do this to me, the whole word has already seen how much i've failed these last few days and it's not fair to continue ruining everything"

"you deserve so much more than the way you're treating yourself, it's not fair"

the british man began looking like a boy again as salty tears began gently streaming from his eyes, he gripped the towels tight to his chest and the crying now became a reality.

limping over to the bed all i could do was be there for my friend, i wrapped my arms around his shaking body, i wrapped my arms so hard i couldn't breathe.

his cold body was streaked with ice cold water, crying into my shoulder all he could do was let it out, the thunderstorm of cries echoed throughout the room.

the door creaked open in a sudden blur of motion, it was jonnny. he took off his jacket and wrapped it around chris's body.

"jonny boy, you shouldn't be seeing me like this, please just go"

"chris mate, you're my best pal and that's what i'm here for, you're too weak to be talking so please save your words and keep them in that mind of yours"

chris went deathly quiet and pale all at once, he began to rapidly sweat as we began running out of ideas fast. his eyes glazed over looking rather grey, jonny and i found fresh sheets in the closet and we wrapped them so much he looked like a human bandage.

jonny dialed for a nearby nurse and a woman entered the creamy hotel room within minutes. she brought her bag and a sealed bowl of soup.

giving her privacy to do her work we left the room without hesitation. we gave space and headed down to the lobby to let the other guys know what was going on.

will caught my eye from across the room, he eyed my shirt up and down. my shirt was wet from tears and vomit, jonny's jacket was missing and will seemed to understand what was going on.

"what happened to him?" will asked in a panicked tone as soon as we arrived to the table, the night sky was now a dark blue and it reflected onto the table giving off a saddened glow.

"i was walking back to my room and i felt something was wrong, he was just there on the floor frozen to the bone, he wouldn't move or anything"

"where is he now, why aren't we helping him?" guy asked

"we called in an emergency nurse she's helping him now and we gave her privacy to do her work" jonny replied quietly

phil's face had gone blank and pale, the head bandage wrapped around his head began soaking with blood from his unhealed wound.

"i feel awful, all i want to do is help him" will mumbled

guy placed his head in his palms and he began shaking his head while will placed his arm around him, phil unwrapped his bandage and he tossed it into the waste bin, he grabbed an extra bandage from his pocket and jonny gave him a hand with the help of wrapping it crisp and tight.

i pulled the chair from the table and all i could do was stare into the distance and just think about what chris said to me.

the phrase haunted me, all i wanted to do was help but i've never felt more useless in my entire life, he was my friend and he cared unlike my mother and deceased father.

i felt myself sinking farther and farther away from this planet, i felt my eyelids close after all this was absolute chaos and there wasn't much i could do.

this is all coming to an end too quickly