Through Chaos As It Swirls//Coldplay

Chapter Nineteen

"Phil had a failure and he's about to die from what the doctors have said and Chris is going into emergency surgery."

Many minutes passed feeling like hours as I felt second by second air drained from my lungs as I laid in complete shock on the floor crying gasping for air wanting it to all end.
I feel tears roll down my face and I see a small piece of confetti laying next to my weaker frame as my tears drip silent and soft onto the thin material soaking it instantly.

I quietly lift my head and the stadium is silent and empty except Guy's silent cries and he takes a sharp breath in and his chocolate eyes swirled with clouds and storms to make the perfect blend of brown to ever exist. "Reese– what should we do" he asks without looking up pretending to be fumbling with the buttons on his shirt.

I wait a few seconds to think about his question with my empty and foggy head, I take one of my cold hands and wipe my warm forehead beaded with sweat and I gaze at him wondering how I actually should answer the question but as I begin to speak I'm cut off by the ringing sounds of Will's phone.

I can make out a familiar voice of Jonny screaming but yet he's crying into the phone and I can't hear much of the conversation but I can tell it's very sad because Jonny is a kind of man that never cries and he holds it all in and he handles it alone without ever confessing his problems to anyone else he's just that kind of person who never lets a situation effect him automatically it takes time and it breaks him apart when he realizes what occurred.

My eyes quietly laid on whatever was in view which was a cloudy dark stadium full of just sadness and  only looked forward letting all the anxiety and bad thoughts attack me while all the chaos occurred and it felt like it swirled around me and I felt I was against the world and the pain just couldn't end and whenever I'm ok and doing well something comes in and makes my life more hell then it has been before.

I hear Will on the point of breaking behind me talking to Jonny as calm as he can but I know tears are pouring from his eyes as I can hear his voice cracking and stuttering every few seconds and I close my eyes and I feel my eyelashes softly lay down on my face as I hug my knees and let my breathing be the best it can in a calm manner.

I feel myself drift away and before I know I must have fallen asleep and I had a nightmare and I was in Phil's point of view and I felt myself being dragged away by the car on the hard pavement and I feel gashes forming and I'm screaming but no one can hear me I scream for help as the world is spinning in a blur and it's endless as my head is dragged on the road and I feel rocks stick in my skin as I feel I'm screaming out of my own skin.

My screams are muted by all of the traffic traveling around and it's played over and over again basically as I'm there I feel blood flow from so many parts of my body and the car slams on its breaks and I fly and I slam so hard onto the pavement I'm sure that I'm dead and it's all gone but I open my eyes and I feel a pair of arms wrap around me as I'm shaking.

I look and see similar walls and my eyes adjust to realize I'm in the waiting room of where Phil is and where Chris is officially located.
The arms belong to Will as he's gentle and caring while he's loosing it every second we sit here in this room and he wants to know what's happening just all of us are wondering and praying that our friends and family are holding on for their dear lives close enough to dying in actual seconds.

Every five seconds a baby is born but every ten seconds unfortunately someone passed away and in one minute just six people can pass on and twelve new people would be welcomed into the world but one of those six people could be one of my friends and they could be gone forever and I wouldn't ever see them ever again.

I shake my head and try my best to push away the thoughts and I feel my pulse quicken and try to remember what Will had said to me but my negative yet painful thoughts were taking over and I noticed my sleeve was pushed up a tad and I saw a few of old scars and I shoved my sleeve down as quick as I could without anyone noticing.

I turned to Will and I wanted to ask him what he wanted to talk to me about but he was too busy looking deep in thought and I tap his shoulder very light I doubt he even noticed but his tired eyes drifted over to me and he locked his eyes into mine and I stuttered at first but I swallowed and spoke clearer.

"What were you asking me earlier I must have not heard you and I'm sorry" his pale face reads me trying to remember what he had said and his mouth just formed a straight line "oh it wasn't much it was a joke but then I noticed it probably wasn't an appropriate time for that."

I just nodded my head and just said it wasn't a big deal and I turned my head the other way and my glasses slid off of my face and clattered to the floor as I went to reach them someone else grabbed them and placed them quietly back onto my nose and behind my ears and as my eyes came into focus again it was Jonny who picked up my glasses for me and he gave me a sad nod as I quietly thanked him.

I felt blood rushing throughout my entire body in panic and I was dazed but a figure came into view and it was a nurse and she had updates about Phil and she said it wasn't great news.

I swear I felt my heart stop beating