Through Chaos As It Swirls//Coldplay

Chapter Fourteen

I pulled up Chris's sleeves to reveal small cuts on his wrists to huge gashes lined along his forearms.

He bit his lip and he wouldn't make eye contact as a tear trickled down from his ocean blue eyes.

"Chris"

"Hm"

"Does anyone else know anything about this?" I asked.

"Nope"

"Why not?"

"Because Reese I'm scared, scared that what people will think of me and that people will think I'm useless and worthless" Chris sighed.

"Please don't tell anyone about this please I'm begging you" Chris cried

Chris locked his eyes with mine and by looking into his blue eyes thy were red and bloodshot and full of pain and hurt.

"I promise"

"Thank you Reese"

I pulled him into a hug while he cried onto my shoulder.

I pulled away from Chris staring up at the beautiful blue cloudless sky.

I sighed realizing that I will die and it hit me that I have cancer and that I am going to die and I'm not ready.

I stood up and I grabbed Chris's hand and I tried to pull him up with my weaker frame.

We walked back in silence to the entrance of the hospital and we walked to the elevator.

The whole elevator ride was silent other than the beeping and the opening and closing of the doors.

Chris walked me back to Phil's room and we entered the door slowly and quietly.

Phil remained hooked up to many machines and he was asleep while his stomach rose slow.

"What's exactly wrong with him and why isn't he doing well?" I asked.

"Well.... his condition is weak and his body structure can't exactly support him right now with all the broken bones" Chris quietly responded.

Tears began flowing from Chris's eyes and he silently cried to himself.

"Reese, I lied Phil is the only one that knows about my depression and he's helped me through so many things and without him I don't know what I'll do" Chris cried.

I hugged Chris again, he was shaking from fear and pain, his skinny body was cold.

"Chris?"

"Y-yeah?"

"Shall we leave soon for rehearsal it'll take your mind off of things I promise"

"I mean I guess so" he cried.

I called the bus man and he was there after fifteen minutes I called.

Chris and I climbed onto the bus and sat towards the back where no one would sit.

He dried away his tears and he put on a fake smile and tried to act as if he was happy and I didn't know what to really do.